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i keep having perfect nights. how long have i been going to shows alone? since the early days of calio's? god, how i miss that bar. for the most part, flying solo never bothered me too much. i can still do it anytime, any place. but it is nice, for once, to have someone who is not only willing, but actually WANTS to go to the same places that i want to go to. i need more of these people, please.
i've been making an effort lately not to judge or dismiss people i barely know and give each person a chance. we've all made snap judgements about people, you've probably done it today. pre-conceived notions run rampant in this town, everybody thinks they've got everyone else figured out. but i don't know what the hell any of you are all about, and i won't pretend to. sometimes i definitely wonder, though.
babble. i've met and gotten to know some really great people in the last year - and through those people, i continue to meet more people all of the time. it's refreshing. i used to be so painfully shy, i would hardly speak to anyone at shows except the three or four people i was acquainted with. i am still a bit socially awkward and i guess it's a bit sad that i need booze to come out of my shell, but i am beginning to realize that i actually like who i am (except when i drunkenly dance in front of mirrors to see how i looked while dancing at a show. that shit ain't pretty).
bottom line: i am really grateful for the people i have in my life. i miss my old friends a lot too, it was so good to see gerry this summer. i miss having male friends. and camping.
i was one damn hot 16 year old
i've been making an effort lately not to judge or dismiss people i barely know and give each person a chance. we've all made snap judgements about people, you've probably done it today. pre-conceived notions run rampant in this town, everybody thinks they've got everyone else figured out. but i don't know what the hell any of you are all about, and i won't pretend to. sometimes i definitely wonder, though.
babble. i've met and gotten to know some really great people in the last year - and through those people, i continue to meet more people all of the time. it's refreshing. i used to be so painfully shy, i would hardly speak to anyone at shows except the three or four people i was acquainted with. i am still a bit socially awkward and i guess it's a bit sad that i need booze to come out of my shell, but i am beginning to realize that i actually like who i am (except when i drunkenly dance in front of mirrors to see how i looked while dancing at a show. that shit ain't pretty).
bottom line: i am really grateful for the people i have in my life. i miss my old friends a lot too, it was so good to see gerry this summer. i miss having male friends. and camping.
i was one damn hot 16 year old