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i feel like i have so much to write about. my life is sooo confusing right now and its alllll thanks to my dumb knees. I went to the city again today for a consultation, and the surgery that i need is pretty intense. i would get surgery on my right knee, be on crutches for 6 weeks, and no physical activiy for 6 months. 3 months after my 1st surgery, i would need surgery on my left knee....i think. Maybe im wrong, maybe its 6months after my 1st surgery, i get my second one....but WHATEVER. the point is that this year is going to be extrem,ely hard. I have so many plans for this summer and next year that are all going down the drain. i was supposed to lease Indianna this summer. i was supposed to go to acting camp. i was supposed to stay on the new fitess regimen that i made for myself and suprise everyone and not be fat by september. thats all gone if i get this surgery. and next year, i wanted more than anything that you could possibly imagine to be in Rep. but that would require dancing. and i wont be able to dance for six months. Which means i cant be in 42d street. And i cant take riding or dance next year, which means i will probably gain weight. And i was in the doctors office today dissussing everything i would give up, and i started crying. it was terrible. i didnt sob. it was the kind of crying that is silent, but all of a sudden your ose starts running too and you make all these sniffly sounds and the doctor tries to comfort you. She didnt help. whatever
but then i was in the car with my mom and we were talking about what i could do with a year of nothing and we started talking about community service crap. ad the we got to the topic of seeing eye dogs. and then we decided that if i got the surgery, that i could raise a seeing eye dog(a dog for blind people), which is somethig that i would loveeeee.
so yea, then my friend adam came over and im not going into great detail about this, but he almost got himself beaten up REALLY BADLY at LaGrande Park. and it was the best thing ever. ever. EVER.
yea, its been a busy day and i never got to call JULIA back and i feel like crappola. But i couldnt call with guests here and they just left.
yea, the end.
my birthday is in 2 days....i bet no one remembers except the people who read this entry
yea bye
but then i was in the car with my mom and we were talking about what i could do with a year of nothing and we started talking about community service crap. ad the we got to the topic of seeing eye dogs. and then we decided that if i got the surgery, that i could raise a seeing eye dog(a dog for blind people), which is somethig that i would loveeeee.
so yea, then my friend adam came over and im not going into great detail about this, but he almost got himself beaten up REALLY BADLY at LaGrande Park. and it was the best thing ever. ever. EVER.
yea, its been a busy day and i never got to call JULIA back and i feel like crappola. But i couldnt call with guests here and they just left.
yea, the end.
my birthday is in 2 days....i bet no one remembers except the people who read this entry
yea bye