how do i get there?

[meg_a_freak]

it is funny to me about all the plans we make for our lives that we never really go through with. and then i begin to wonder - why plan? it never works out.
i am taking those little signs and hints. everything has worked out perfectly here and nothing out there. i am so disappointed. mostly i am just mad at myself...for not being talented enough or smart enough. but i cant leave here and go out there with a huge dept on my hands. why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why. why cant college be free...
i despise that person that invented money...the idea of a money system. fuck you asswhhole.
i have set up too many options for myself. which is confusing because now i dont know what i want. well i know what i want but thats not going to happen