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our feast was awesome. the turkey turned out moist and juicy and i took every tiny piece of flesh off that bird. we filled two casserole dishes. today i will put them in baggies. one full of white meat will go to the awesome friend who donated the bird to us.
we're having leftovers today. like a regular thanksgiving. :)
i have work to do, but it's not a lot. i'm really liking my job and happy that the huge part of the fundraiser is now over. that assembly wasn't so bad, but it's over now. still collectingn orders, but no more prep time handing out materials or prizes. i can get my work done now.
i dreamed i was in a stressful situation....and my ex, of course, showed up in my dream. why does he always do that? why do i ALWays DREAM OF him in some way? i don't even like the guy. i'm pretty much over my anger and resentment and still, he pops up. weird. i think he still represents certain issues i'm going through.
i'm getting ready to apply for school again. trying to find one that won't break my finances, but will have what i want. the school i want to go to is really expensive. it's in portland though and our goal is to move closer, if not to, portland next summer. i'll have to commute to work, but whatever. that's the current goal.
we're officially out of smoke again. a week before payday to dry out. i was crabby last night. curtis shared his last tiny bowl with the friends he invited over. that's TOTALLY fine except it was also the friend who loaned us some until payday and it has already been smoked. i WISH curtis had told him to bring some more, but that didn't happen. thisis the boyfriend of curtis's "sister". she's a girl who's going to college here that curtis's parents have sort of adopted because her own mother is incompetant. she's a sweetie and young and full of life and energy. her boyfriend is darling and they are both really cool. curtis felt he should bring out the last tiny bowl and that was fine. i am crabby though with headache and cramps and guess i was being selfish.
anyway, they enjoyed dinner and were petting the doggies and stuff.
tommy is getting to roam more freely. there is only one gate up now, and that's to keep the dogs out of his litter box and food. that's up on our bathroom and pretty much a necessity. sam has charged tom, but not so much and i htink tom is getting mroe confidence. he sooooo wants to go outside, but mike isn't ready. he thinks he should stay in,but i tried to explain that at sheri's he really liked being outside. we'll see. maybe papa will come around. :)
i'm definately playing with ideas for nanowrimo this this. wnat to for sure do this and will sign up this morning.
i also REALLY need to get a budget figured out because told the family (me, mike and curtis) that as soon as that check goes into the bank, we are sitting down to budget and sticking to it. curtis isn't going to be getting help from his parents afterall, which means he's dependent on us. he has a job interview already lined up for this week though and i'm SURE he'll get it.
mike needs to get on the ball, but with curtis getting interviews, i don't need to tell mike. i'm sure he's feeling his own pressure.
we need car insurance and registration. i also need to get my license renewed and for oregon. it's expired from california, so basically i'm driving three ways illegally. (sigh). just one thing that happens when you don't have money for things. this is all about not having money.
intentions and the sslos have really been working wonders for me. so much that i'd love to be a life coach for others to help them live with intentions and these natural laws of quantum physics. i want to look further into this. chopra has life centers throughout the state and seminars. this is something i'm REALLY wanting to involve myself in. this is my new "religion", for lack of a better word. i still call myself a taoist htough, but i just wnat to live happily. these practices have allowed that. it's not easy though. not at all. one thing i've learned, at least for me, is that living simply isn't as easy as it sounds. i want it though and am willing to continue to sacrifice for it, but it's hard to fight my ego and societal norms and expectations. i think helping others and telling about my practice and experiences, has kept me in my own spirit. teaching is truly a talent of mine, but also a gift for me because when i teach others, i learn so much about myself.
even though my debt is the same and i'm still behind on certain bills, i'm not feeling the same stress as before. i'm learning to be silent and to listen more, even when i'm being criticized.
i'm not too good at the last one, but i'm trying and practice will make perfect. maybe.
going to go now. the boys will be up first and i have a battle with ants to attend to.
i'm thankful today for a warm house full of love and friendship
for full cupboards and refrigerator.
i'm happy for some cash i have that will fill my gas tank
i'm happy and thankful for a job that has a steady income until august of next year
i'm thankful for curtis's job interview
i'm thankful for my husband. on tuesday we will have been married for two years and i'm so glad we are together, even though at times he drives me out of my mind, i know that's all about me. i need to learn to accept his faults and learn to accept my responsibility in the situations.
i'm thankful for postponed bills, like garbage and internet and electricity.
today is a great day full of nummy food and laughs.
here i go.
namaste
we're having leftovers today. like a regular thanksgiving. :)
i have work to do, but it's not a lot. i'm really liking my job and happy that the huge part of the fundraiser is now over. that assembly wasn't so bad, but it's over now. still collectingn orders, but no more prep time handing out materials or prizes. i can get my work done now.
i dreamed i was in a stressful situation....and my ex, of course, showed up in my dream. why does he always do that? why do i ALWays DREAM OF him in some way? i don't even like the guy. i'm pretty much over my anger and resentment and still, he pops up. weird. i think he still represents certain issues i'm going through.
i'm getting ready to apply for school again. trying to find one that won't break my finances, but will have what i want. the school i want to go to is really expensive. it's in portland though and our goal is to move closer, if not to, portland next summer. i'll have to commute to work, but whatever. that's the current goal.
we're officially out of smoke again. a week before payday to dry out. i was crabby last night. curtis shared his last tiny bowl with the friends he invited over. that's TOTALLY fine except it was also the friend who loaned us some until payday and it has already been smoked. i WISH curtis had told him to bring some more, but that didn't happen. thisis the boyfriend of curtis's "sister". she's a girl who's going to college here that curtis's parents have sort of adopted because her own mother is incompetant. she's a sweetie and young and full of life and energy. her boyfriend is darling and they are both really cool. curtis felt he should bring out the last tiny bowl and that was fine. i am crabby though with headache and cramps and guess i was being selfish.
anyway, they enjoyed dinner and were petting the doggies and stuff.
tommy is getting to roam more freely. there is only one gate up now, and that's to keep the dogs out of his litter box and food. that's up on our bathroom and pretty much a necessity. sam has charged tom, but not so much and i htink tom is getting mroe confidence. he sooooo wants to go outside, but mike isn't ready. he thinks he should stay in,but i tried to explain that at sheri's he really liked being outside. we'll see. maybe papa will come around. :)
i'm definately playing with ideas for nanowrimo this this. wnat to for sure do this and will sign up this morning.
i also REALLY need to get a budget figured out because told the family (me, mike and curtis) that as soon as that check goes into the bank, we are sitting down to budget and sticking to it. curtis isn't going to be getting help from his parents afterall, which means he's dependent on us. he has a job interview already lined up for this week though and i'm SURE he'll get it.
mike needs to get on the ball, but with curtis getting interviews, i don't need to tell mike. i'm sure he's feeling his own pressure.
we need car insurance and registration. i also need to get my license renewed and for oregon. it's expired from california, so basically i'm driving three ways illegally. (sigh). just one thing that happens when you don't have money for things. this is all about not having money.
intentions and the sslos have really been working wonders for me. so much that i'd love to be a life coach for others to help them live with intentions and these natural laws of quantum physics. i want to look further into this. chopra has life centers throughout the state and seminars. this is something i'm REALLY wanting to involve myself in. this is my new "religion", for lack of a better word. i still call myself a taoist htough, but i just wnat to live happily. these practices have allowed that. it's not easy though. not at all. one thing i've learned, at least for me, is that living simply isn't as easy as it sounds. i want it though and am willing to continue to sacrifice for it, but it's hard to fight my ego and societal norms and expectations. i think helping others and telling about my practice and experiences, has kept me in my own spirit. teaching is truly a talent of mine, but also a gift for me because when i teach others, i learn so much about myself.
even though my debt is the same and i'm still behind on certain bills, i'm not feeling the same stress as before. i'm learning to be silent and to listen more, even when i'm being criticized.
i'm not too good at the last one, but i'm trying and practice will make perfect. maybe.
going to go now. the boys will be up first and i have a battle with ants to attend to.
i'm thankful today for a warm house full of love and friendship
for full cupboards and refrigerator.
i'm happy for some cash i have that will fill my gas tank
i'm happy and thankful for a job that has a steady income until august of next year
i'm thankful for curtis's job interview
i'm thankful for my husband. on tuesday we will have been married for two years and i'm so glad we are together, even though at times he drives me out of my mind, i know that's all about me. i need to learn to accept his faults and learn to accept my responsibility in the situations.
i'm thankful for postponed bills, like garbage and internet and electricity.
today is a great day full of nummy food and laughs.
here i go.
namaste