Diamonds
I start at Diamonds tonight <3 Last night was the meet & greet. About 90 people came to it. It was simply amazing. I loved it! I was so happy!!! Free food & drinks for all. They let us dance in our undies but had to keep our tops on. I made $21 in tips in less then 5 minutes. Autumn came. Cael came. Trevor & Jeremy too! Hal! My ex Erik came & brought 4 friends. Such a lovely evening we all had!!!
I am nervous & excited for tonight. I think I will do good. They seemed like they were proud of all the dancers last night so I am trying to have faith in myself. I know I can do this! I know I can be sexy! I just hate talking to people & hustling lap dances and such. I also really hate drinking lately ugh makes me so sick to my stomach. Probably because Valentines day night Sarah & I went out drinking & I came home & threw up then again the next morning then again in the afternoon. I had 3 or 4 drinks last night at the meet & greet. Didn't feel like drinking though. Ugh. Eww.
I dont remember the last time I wrote in here but Sarah is staying with me now. Paul moved out when she moved in. He hates her. I guess its going ok but she is still only 20 & immature at times. I try to deal & I do ok. I just wish she would grow up & fix some of her crazy ways at times.
I havent smoked a whole 30 in almost a week. I've shared one with Sarah or some friends gave me hits off theirs but I haven't had the money to blow on drugs so I've been doing good going without. I got 5 bags of rat food wednesday & I paid rent for March today. Got $107 to myself. Gotta save a lot though since we gotta pay to work at the club each night & if I don't make any money while working there then I will need what I have saved to pay my way.
Guess I am off to get ready for the club now. I'm so nervous I could puke. Stayed with my ex Erik last night & he dopes me up on Vicodins. 3-4 before bed & when we woke up. Made me feel so dizzy and sick today though. I told him I can't stomach them well & they make me sick. Probably wont pop any more any time soon. I want this feeling to go away. Ugh. Gotta work the hotel tomorrow morning.. Not looking forward to that. Will get home around 2am.. then have to be up at 7:30am. Work all day at the hotel. Come home to tend to the pets then leave for work at the club again. I got Tuesday & Wednesday off. I'm dying for it already.
I hope I make good money tonight & tomorrow night.. I owe Erik $80. I had to buy a new wall charger for my laptop when it shit the bed a few days ago. He let me borrow the money which was nice but I hate owing people shit. Blah.
Ok.. I'm off.. butterflies so bad.
xoxo
Ashlee
I am nervous & excited for tonight. I think I will do good. They seemed like they were proud of all the dancers last night so I am trying to have faith in myself. I know I can do this! I know I can be sexy! I just hate talking to people & hustling lap dances and such. I also really hate drinking lately ugh makes me so sick to my stomach. Probably because Valentines day night Sarah & I went out drinking & I came home & threw up then again the next morning then again in the afternoon. I had 3 or 4 drinks last night at the meet & greet. Didn't feel like drinking though. Ugh. Eww.
I dont remember the last time I wrote in here but Sarah is staying with me now. Paul moved out when she moved in. He hates her. I guess its going ok but she is still only 20 & immature at times. I try to deal & I do ok. I just wish she would grow up & fix some of her crazy ways at times.
I havent smoked a whole 30 in almost a week. I've shared one with Sarah or some friends gave me hits off theirs but I haven't had the money to blow on drugs so I've been doing good going without. I got 5 bags of rat food wednesday & I paid rent for March today. Got $107 to myself. Gotta save a lot though since we gotta pay to work at the club each night & if I don't make any money while working there then I will need what I have saved to pay my way.
Guess I am off to get ready for the club now. I'm so nervous I could puke. Stayed with my ex Erik last night & he dopes me up on Vicodins. 3-4 before bed & when we woke up. Made me feel so dizzy and sick today though. I told him I can't stomach them well & they make me sick. Probably wont pop any more any time soon. I want this feeling to go away. Ugh. Gotta work the hotel tomorrow morning.. Not looking forward to that. Will get home around 2am.. then have to be up at 7:30am. Work all day at the hotel. Come home to tend to the pets then leave for work at the club again. I got Tuesday & Wednesday off. I'm dying for it already.
I hope I make good money tonight & tomorrow night.. I owe Erik $80. I had to buy a new wall charger for my laptop when it shit the bed a few days ago. He let me borrow the money which was nice but I hate owing people shit. Blah.
Ok.. I'm off.. butterflies so bad.
xoxo
Ashlee