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A few nights ago I went to the casino with Matt's sister & Carlos. Matt's Sister called Matt in Ohio & put me on the phone. I could tell he wasn't happy with the little trick haha but whatever. I was pleased to hear his voice regardless if he gave a shit or not to talk to me. Nothing has changed. I'm still blocked on facebook and he doesn't text or call me.
Jefferson hung out with me Tuesday & spent the night <3 We had a bunch of hot hot sex. He's so awesome! I am getting sad though knowing soon after the new year he will be leaving state again to go back to work :( I'll have to wait like 3-4 months to see him again. All I can do is enjoy the time we have to spend together while he is here.
Um so the night I was at the casino I ran into my landlord. He was with Joel (Cael's ex boyfriend) & Coakley- A guy we all grew up with back in the day. Coakley was looking pretty sexy & I flirted with him a lot. He gave me his number & I text him that night :p 2 days later I had him over & we fucked. It was so hot fucking someone I have not really seen in like 10 years. He has a big dick & I liked it. I'm sure we will hook up again sometime. He wants to have a threesome with Sarah. I gotta convince her! She's gotta meet him & if she thinks he is hot then I don't see why she wouldn't do it. He's never had one & I want to make it possible for him!! Aww I'm so cool lol.
Umm what else lately? Not much.. Same old shit. New days.
Work is work. I got someone on facebook to mail me $100 for a new rat cage. That was pretty cool. And at the casino that night they kept giving me so much money I'd just gamble some & keep the rest so it made it possible for me to pay rent for January TODAY!!!! I am so happy! I still had $200 to blow after that too. I bought 2 30's last night & another 1 today. I only smoked 1 last night but I am waiting for Sarah to show up later tonight so we can smoke them both. I need to buy some weed but my dealer is sick so said to wait until tomorrow. Don't know what my schedule will be like tomorrow though. Blah.
I got the secret santa gift for the lady at my work. $25 gift card to the movie theater. I asked my boss for ideas on what I should get because I was having a hard time deciding and she said to go with the movies gift card so I hope it is appreciated! And as far as I know Jefferson is my date for the Christmas party at work this Saturday so everything should work out fine as long as he does not ditch me because my mom is out of town & I'd need a ride if he bails but I hope he wont!
The night Jefferson stayed over he had 10's and gave me 1 & I bought a 2nd off him. I text Sarah to see if I could smoke them and she said she wouldn't so I had to resort to snorting them which made me feel bad because I said I'd never snort anything but coke. I have been so stuffed up & feel like I have a cold ever since. Wish I never snorted them! It was such a fun night though. It made the sex so good lol. So whatever. I guess being stuffed up is worth it. Plus I'm sure I just happened to get a cold at the same time. Seems like every 3 weeks I am getting sick now. God damn housekeeping. Germs get me weak. Blah.
1 day some of the female rats escaped. Chewed a hole in the plastic bottom tray of their cage. Only 3 were roaming when I woke up but that doesn't mean the other 4 didnt venture out then go back in their cage. I am worried some could be pregnant. They would of had to breed with the males through the bars of the males cages but hey anything is possible. A bunch of baby ratties is not what I need! But Cael will take 2 females she says haha but if a ton of rats do end up pregnant just getting 2 off my hands wont be much help. They have huge litters. I just gotta hope no one conceived! Ended up switching the chewed plastic bottom of the rats cage with the plastic bottom of the bunnies cage. They are both the same size & brand so it was perfect! Saved me having to run out & spend money on new cage. I'd just bought the new one for the boy ratties so I was relieved to solve my own problem for once lol.
Umm anything else? Nope guess not...
Still no word from Jeff but that is ok. Every day I seem more and more bitter he stole my stuff... His Dad said he is sober now. Well just smokes weed but isn't doing drugs.That's good I guess. I don't really care. I just don't want him to pop in and out of my life.. I hate that shit. Cuz I always am there for him no matter how bad he fucks me over. I suck.
Matt's Sister wants me to come to Ohio with her & Carlos sometime in January. Said they would pay for someone to take care of my critters while we are gone. She wants me to see Matt. I kinda wanted to go at first but now I think it's pointless. I don't want to go. I don't want to leave my pets. I don't want to see Matt on his terms in his home state. I don't want to be outside my bubble for anyone.
2 people who supposedly thought the world of me deleted me from facebook because they think I was "outing" Matt on facebook and that was so uncalled for of me to do. Fuck them, They have no idea how he fucked me over or what happened between him & I. They don't even fucking know him! I love how I was just deleted and not even confronted in a message or anything. I don't delete people off my list just because I disagree with their posts. That is fucking bullshit. You really learn who your true friends are that is for sure. Fuck you Trish & Josh! You both are fake. If you ever really were my friend you wouldn't of just threw me away like this. Blah.
I'm surprised my Mother hasn't called to talk my ear off & annoy the piss out of me tonight. She has the last few nights & I'm either doing drugs or trying to fuck someone & it's really pissing me off. I try & tell her I'm busy but she wont let me off the phone & keeps talking. she even had the nerve to say that I could tell my company to leave because it was getting late! I was like "mom it's only 8pm. I'm almost 30 I think I can control my own life thanks" She is so annoying!!!! I should be happy to have her back in my life again and believe me I am but it is fucking retarded how she never gets the hint that maybe I have something going on and maybe my friends don't want to sit and watch me talk to her on the phone?! Yet it's like the idea never crosses her mind. Blah.
Lots of Blah.
I can't think of anything else to say. My nose is stuffed up & running at the same time. I feel a headache coming on. I just want to to these drugs & go to bed! Hurry up Sarah or I will start without you!
xoxo
ME
Jefferson hung out with me Tuesday & spent the night <3 We had a bunch of hot hot sex. He's so awesome! I am getting sad though knowing soon after the new year he will be leaving state again to go back to work :( I'll have to wait like 3-4 months to see him again. All I can do is enjoy the time we have to spend together while he is here.
Um so the night I was at the casino I ran into my landlord. He was with Joel (Cael's ex boyfriend) & Coakley- A guy we all grew up with back in the day. Coakley was looking pretty sexy & I flirted with him a lot. He gave me his number & I text him that night :p 2 days later I had him over & we fucked. It was so hot fucking someone I have not really seen in like 10 years. He has a big dick & I liked it. I'm sure we will hook up again sometime. He wants to have a threesome with Sarah. I gotta convince her! She's gotta meet him & if she thinks he is hot then I don't see why she wouldn't do it. He's never had one & I want to make it possible for him!! Aww I'm so cool lol.
Umm what else lately? Not much.. Same old shit. New days.
Work is work. I got someone on facebook to mail me $100 for a new rat cage. That was pretty cool. And at the casino that night they kept giving me so much money I'd just gamble some & keep the rest so it made it possible for me to pay rent for January TODAY!!!! I am so happy! I still had $200 to blow after that too. I bought 2 30's last night & another 1 today. I only smoked 1 last night but I am waiting for Sarah to show up later tonight so we can smoke them both. I need to buy some weed but my dealer is sick so said to wait until tomorrow. Don't know what my schedule will be like tomorrow though. Blah.
I got the secret santa gift for the lady at my work. $25 gift card to the movie theater. I asked my boss for ideas on what I should get because I was having a hard time deciding and she said to go with the movies gift card so I hope it is appreciated! And as far as I know Jefferson is my date for the Christmas party at work this Saturday so everything should work out fine as long as he does not ditch me because my mom is out of town & I'd need a ride if he bails but I hope he wont!
The night Jefferson stayed over he had 10's and gave me 1 & I bought a 2nd off him. I text Sarah to see if I could smoke them and she said she wouldn't so I had to resort to snorting them which made me feel bad because I said I'd never snort anything but coke. I have been so stuffed up & feel like I have a cold ever since. Wish I never snorted them! It was such a fun night though. It made the sex so good lol. So whatever. I guess being stuffed up is worth it. Plus I'm sure I just happened to get a cold at the same time. Seems like every 3 weeks I am getting sick now. God damn housekeeping. Germs get me weak. Blah.
1 day some of the female rats escaped. Chewed a hole in the plastic bottom tray of their cage. Only 3 were roaming when I woke up but that doesn't mean the other 4 didnt venture out then go back in their cage. I am worried some could be pregnant. They would of had to breed with the males through the bars of the males cages but hey anything is possible. A bunch of baby ratties is not what I need! But Cael will take 2 females she says haha but if a ton of rats do end up pregnant just getting 2 off my hands wont be much help. They have huge litters. I just gotta hope no one conceived! Ended up switching the chewed plastic bottom of the rats cage with the plastic bottom of the bunnies cage. They are both the same size & brand so it was perfect! Saved me having to run out & spend money on new cage. I'd just bought the new one for the boy ratties so I was relieved to solve my own problem for once lol.
Umm anything else? Nope guess not...
Still no word from Jeff but that is ok. Every day I seem more and more bitter he stole my stuff... His Dad said he is sober now. Well just smokes weed but isn't doing drugs.That's good I guess. I don't really care. I just don't want him to pop in and out of my life.. I hate that shit. Cuz I always am there for him no matter how bad he fucks me over. I suck.
Matt's Sister wants me to come to Ohio with her & Carlos sometime in January. Said they would pay for someone to take care of my critters while we are gone. She wants me to see Matt. I kinda wanted to go at first but now I think it's pointless. I don't want to go. I don't want to leave my pets. I don't want to see Matt on his terms in his home state. I don't want to be outside my bubble for anyone.
2 people who supposedly thought the world of me deleted me from facebook because they think I was "outing" Matt on facebook and that was so uncalled for of me to do. Fuck them, They have no idea how he fucked me over or what happened between him & I. They don't even fucking know him! I love how I was just deleted and not even confronted in a message or anything. I don't delete people off my list just because I disagree with their posts. That is fucking bullshit. You really learn who your true friends are that is for sure. Fuck you Trish & Josh! You both are fake. If you ever really were my friend you wouldn't of just threw me away like this. Blah.
I'm surprised my Mother hasn't called to talk my ear off & annoy the piss out of me tonight. She has the last few nights & I'm either doing drugs or trying to fuck someone & it's really pissing me off. I try & tell her I'm busy but she wont let me off the phone & keeps talking. she even had the nerve to say that I could tell my company to leave because it was getting late! I was like "mom it's only 8pm. I'm almost 30 I think I can control my own life thanks" She is so annoying!!!! I should be happy to have her back in my life again and believe me I am but it is fucking retarded how she never gets the hint that maybe I have something going on and maybe my friends don't want to sit and watch me talk to her on the phone?! Yet it's like the idea never crosses her mind. Blah.
Lots of Blah.
I can't think of anything else to say. My nose is stuffed up & running at the same time. I feel a headache coming on. I just want to to these drugs & go to bed! Hurry up Sarah or I will start without you!
xoxo
ME