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Hours later the tears won't subside. I tried riding away on my bike but you can't ride away from fear or life or who I am.For the most part I'm a failure. I hate living here and I hate being at the mercy of other ppl's wrath. I so needed to run away today. It won't end. I can't stop spitting up blood and puss and I think the pills are hurting me my kidneys hurt. I found my diary from my childhood I started ripping pages out. I just wish the nothing would destroy that past. This is truely me at my worst. For this I'm truely sorry.