To Update or Not To Update
It's been 5 days since my B-Day, so now I am 19 and 5 days(weeeee!). Anyways, not much of an update...just a heads up on what's been going on in my life. Umm...let's see:
Oh yea....I patched things up with Ashley. I'm not completely sure everything is cool between us, but it seems fine because when we are on the phone we talk like we never stopped talking in the first place. Other than that, it seems to be okay.
Hmm...it's sad that the end of the semester is coming so close and that it'll be over for a while. A whole summer actually. I don't think this semester is going to end well. I mean grade wise I'm good, everything's cool...I'm more or less talking my social life. I mean don't get me wrong, there are some wonderful new people I have in my life, it's just that ever since this semester started there's been a relapse with a few of those friendships. I won't name any names, shouldn't even mention it, but whatever. I guess I understand though...these things happen, and I'm sure they happen for a reason...a reason I'm not quite sure of yet. Who knows? Maybe they weren't meant to be. Maybe trying to make things right was false hope that everything would go back to the way they were. I don't know. I never seem to know anything anymore. Everything's beginning to feel like a fading memory, a passing dream, just that thing that just ends, but without questions, y'know? I know those kinda things take time...but regression is an easy stage to fall back into, and then everything is back full circle. So should I let it fade away? I'm not sure. Better question is will I be okay with it? That I don't know either.
Oh yea....I patched things up with Ashley. I'm not completely sure everything is cool between us, but it seems fine because when we are on the phone we talk like we never stopped talking in the first place. Other than that, it seems to be okay.
Hmm...it's sad that the end of the semester is coming so close and that it'll be over for a while. A whole summer actually. I don't think this semester is going to end well. I mean grade wise I'm good, everything's cool...I'm more or less talking my social life. I mean don't get me wrong, there are some wonderful new people I have in my life, it's just that ever since this semester started there's been a relapse with a few of those friendships. I won't name any names, shouldn't even mention it, but whatever. I guess I understand though...these things happen, and I'm sure they happen for a reason...a reason I'm not quite sure of yet. Who knows? Maybe they weren't meant to be. Maybe trying to make things right was false hope that everything would go back to the way they were. I don't know. I never seem to know anything anymore. Everything's beginning to feel like a fading memory, a passing dream, just that thing that just ends, but without questions, y'know? I know those kinda things take time...but regression is an easy stage to fall back into, and then everything is back full circle. So should I let it fade away? I'm not sure. Better question is will I be okay with it? That I don't know either.