My own worst enemy
So here I am procrastinating merrily away. I really need to stop, but I just really am struggling with motivation for pushing onwards.
I am supposed to be doing applications so that come June and the end of my exams I am not unemployed. I feel like it is getting to the stage where I just need to pump out thousands of applications and see how it goes, but it's just so freaking demoralising to constantly be applying and just getting rejection after rejection or even not hearing back from people at all. I only have a limited enthusiasm for it. However, I must push on, cos you've got to be in it to win it right?!
I'm taking this week to do applications and then from sunday I'll be cracking on seriously with revision for exams; didn't want to start too soon, cos I'm very much a last minute learner and there's really not that much to learn from this semester, especially in comparison to last semester. It's better for me to be working under pressure, with not too much free time, cos otherwise I procrastinate (today being case in point!).
In other fun news, as is usual at this time of year, cricket has taken over my life. Played 4 games in 9 days and it's been fun. I feel like I'm getting fitter and I'm definitely getting my eye in and playing much better; makes me happy! I'm already up at 59 runs for the season. Which unfortunately is only an average of 12ish, but it's been worse, and in fact my last 2 innings have rescued it significantly.
And finally to the boy. Who knows what's going on there?! I'm getting to the stage where it seems like a lot harder work than the enjoyment I am getting from it. But then I see him and it's all good again. Confusion. I'm gonna not worry too much about it and see how things go.
I am supposed to be doing applications so that come June and the end of my exams I am not unemployed. I feel like it is getting to the stage where I just need to pump out thousands of applications and see how it goes, but it's just so freaking demoralising to constantly be applying and just getting rejection after rejection or even not hearing back from people at all. I only have a limited enthusiasm for it. However, I must push on, cos you've got to be in it to win it right?!
I'm taking this week to do applications and then from sunday I'll be cracking on seriously with revision for exams; didn't want to start too soon, cos I'm very much a last minute learner and there's really not that much to learn from this semester, especially in comparison to last semester. It's better for me to be working under pressure, with not too much free time, cos otherwise I procrastinate (today being case in point!).
In other fun news, as is usual at this time of year, cricket has taken over my life. Played 4 games in 9 days and it's been fun. I feel like I'm getting fitter and I'm definitely getting my eye in and playing much better; makes me happy! I'm already up at 59 runs for the season. Which unfortunately is only an average of 12ish, but it's been worse, and in fact my last 2 innings have rescued it significantly.
And finally to the boy. Who knows what's going on there?! I'm getting to the stage where it seems like a lot harder work than the enjoyment I am getting from it. But then I see him and it's all good again. Confusion. I'm gonna not worry too much about it and see how things go.