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I think I know whats different this time. everyone always asks me that and I think I figured it out finally. This time, with Jeffrey, its really a relationship. Before it was always a party hook-up that just never ended and went on for years. I mean it wasnt suppose to last, I never got to know them it just kind of happened and then things got complicated (like miscarrages and drugs and traveling) and I couldn't get out. Everything is so different with him. I mean I know him and he knows me. He wants to know everything about me and all of my crazy past and I want him to talk to me. It took time for us to get to where we are, I mean we didnt even kiss till I'd know him for almost a month, that is so not like me. Also he choose to pursue me over time, it wasnt like a hookup k now lets start a relationship. everyone else has done things backwards, he did it all in the right order. IDK all I do know is I just want to be with him and I'm going to make the distance dissappear. cause I've been with plenty of crappy asshole guys and I finally found a good one and I wont let him get away.