A little backtracking.....
okay.. here is everything.......
Well, i have known J for alittle over a year. Within that year we have made a lot of history with us. We have never dated, as much as i would have liked to at the time. We did sleep together ( sometimes i wish i never would have).. But all that aside, he was a good friend. He is your typical " pretty boy". He can get any girl he wants, when he wants her, without a problem. We met through a mutual friend. Anyways, to make a long story short, i tried for a long time to be with him. Obviously it never worked. He was always that one person that, well, that you think is like the most amazing person, the most gorgeous person you will ever meet. Well, just recently, i learned why "I'll ever meet" should not be in the english vocabulary. j meant alot to me, even as a friend. I have always said that i wanted him in my life even if it was as a friend, and only a friend. Thats how it is.. Just a friend. Well, at least thats what i thought. Now, he isnt even talking to me, for reason i dont know... Maybe one day i will, maybe one day i wont. I have come to the conclusion that, usually the person you think you arent good enough for.. turns out to be not good enough for you. At least... this is the case here..
There isnt much i can say about P yet, I dont know him that well. I would like for that to change. At least on a friend level for now. From what i know, and have gathered, he is a really good guy, and there really arent too many of them left. Maybe this time, things will be different. Maybe not.. Either way.... I met a good guy.. Thats gotta count for something.. Right....
Well, i have known J for alittle over a year. Within that year we have made a lot of history with us. We have never dated, as much as i would have liked to at the time. We did sleep together ( sometimes i wish i never would have).. But all that aside, he was a good friend. He is your typical " pretty boy". He can get any girl he wants, when he wants her, without a problem. We met through a mutual friend. Anyways, to make a long story short, i tried for a long time to be with him. Obviously it never worked. He was always that one person that, well, that you think is like the most amazing person, the most gorgeous person you will ever meet. Well, just recently, i learned why "I'll ever meet" should not be in the english vocabulary. j meant alot to me, even as a friend. I have always said that i wanted him in my life even if it was as a friend, and only a friend. Thats how it is.. Just a friend. Well, at least thats what i thought. Now, he isnt even talking to me, for reason i dont know... Maybe one day i will, maybe one day i wont. I have come to the conclusion that, usually the person you think you arent good enough for.. turns out to be not good enough for you. At least... this is the case here..
There isnt much i can say about P yet, I dont know him that well. I would like for that to change. At least on a friend level for now. From what i know, and have gathered, he is a really good guy, and there really arent too many of them left. Maybe this time, things will be different. Maybe not.. Either way.... I met a good guy.. Thats gotta count for something.. Right....