so long and thanks for all the fish~
well lets see ive lost about over 8 freinds this month , and any money that comes to me in any paycheck will be going to my car or my parents , and my nosebleeds ive been geting i went to a doctor to see whats causing them and appearently im not sposda work or get into any stressfull situations , what a great time to tell me this , i just want to dissapear about now , but theres also a friens i dont want to lose that i probobly already lost , and ive woken up everyday in this last week and just not wanted to get up cuz i have nothing to look forward to . but i dont feel like suicie or anything dont think that , im actualy doing betetr then i sound because of the 2 people i had like hour long conversations with about people and life and how everything can flip flop in an instant and how even when they think theve found themselves they get lost again. for the longest time i thought i was pretty much emotionless with people and i didnt care what they thought but that thought has dramaticly changed over the course of the last month.