hey, lookit, i'm not ranting today!
do you ever look back on your life, and see a moment...and know that if you changed just that one moment, everything would be different? i was thinkng about that today while i was walking around peddler's village and just people watching. there are so many moments in my life where i look back and i'm like "i wonder if...." and i think about if i had've said this, or done that, how much different would things be right now. its not regret so much as just pondering, and wondering how things could have been, for better or for worse.
whosa i'm gonna critique your essay tonight or tomorrow and i'll email it to you...i kept meaning to do it and i forgot...but i still love you :o)and i'll do it within the next day because i love you.
i'm on a learnig kick again. i want to learn everything and anything there ever was. i decided to teach myself icelandic...i'm trying to figure out if thats possible. but i am in fact in love with icelandic stuff and norse stuff at the moment. but i think i'll rather enjoy speaking a relatively useless language, cuz i'll be able to read old norse stuff since the language hasn't changed in 8 zillion years.
my new goal in life is to mkae everyone happy. i was wandering aorund today and everywhere i went, i was like "oh i wish i could get that for so and so" but unfortunetly i don't have unlimited cash and so couldn't buy everything i wanted. but i did get a few things to brighten some days. and that made me happy.
i was doing a lot of thinking on the bus ride home last night. i think i ended up with some good thoughts. and i realized that i need to fix myself because no one can do it for me. and i realized that i do need to allow people into my world, because i can't be angry no one sees me if i'm trying to not be seen. and i realized that i can't fix everyone around me, no matter how hard i try. and i think i may have ended up on the upside.
but first i had to get through the bout of utter and desolate lonliness. and i nearly cried. and i fought really hard not to, because when you suddenly become insanely lonely because there are couples all around you and you are alone, in the middle of all those couples is not the place to start crying. but i didn't cry when i got home, and that may have been good.
and i think that one of these days i will be ok. and i will be happie. and i will find myself and my passion and someone to share it with. and one day, my soul will find peace, instead of glimmers of hope.
whosa i'm gonna critique your essay tonight or tomorrow and i'll email it to you...i kept meaning to do it and i forgot...but i still love you :o)and i'll do it within the next day because i love you.
i'm on a learnig kick again. i want to learn everything and anything there ever was. i decided to teach myself icelandic...i'm trying to figure out if thats possible. but i am in fact in love with icelandic stuff and norse stuff at the moment. but i think i'll rather enjoy speaking a relatively useless language, cuz i'll be able to read old norse stuff since the language hasn't changed in 8 zillion years.
my new goal in life is to mkae everyone happy. i was wandering aorund today and everywhere i went, i was like "oh i wish i could get that for so and so" but unfortunetly i don't have unlimited cash and so couldn't buy everything i wanted. but i did get a few things to brighten some days. and that made me happy.
i was doing a lot of thinking on the bus ride home last night. i think i ended up with some good thoughts. and i realized that i need to fix myself because no one can do it for me. and i realized that i do need to allow people into my world, because i can't be angry no one sees me if i'm trying to not be seen. and i realized that i can't fix everyone around me, no matter how hard i try. and i think i may have ended up on the upside.
but first i had to get through the bout of utter and desolate lonliness. and i nearly cried. and i fought really hard not to, because when you suddenly become insanely lonely because there are couples all around you and you are alone, in the middle of all those couples is not the place to start crying. but i didn't cry when i got home, and that may have been good.
and i think that one of these days i will be ok. and i will be happie. and i will find myself and my passion and someone to share it with. and one day, my soul will find peace, instead of glimmers of hope.