He.Killed.My.Spirit.

[meandluda]

I wonder if there's a light at the end of my tunnel.
Or if it's a mirage like all the other times.
Everytime I jumped-
I fell.
I never want that again.
The Pain.
The Pressure.
It's seems to be like he's my burden.
He's the root and the begining to my problems.
And my sadness.
But sometimes...
I miss him.
And I forget.
About the good and bad.

So that makes me Blank.
Because I've erased him for so long.
But I'm always willing.
And that makes me weak.
This I know.

It's safe to say
:::I just don't know:::