when the world stops turning...

[meamer13]

i took the AP bio test yesterday and it was mad hard and now im just so relieved that it is over. i have been so confused by my feelings lately. i wish life was just like full of absolute truth and everything was just black and white because it would make everything sooooooooo much simpler. maybe them everyone would know what they wanted out of life too. sometimes i feel like something is missing from me. there is this little empty hole inside of me and i know what can fill it but i don't know how to aquire it. i just wish things are simpler and i think that is my problem. i can't accept life for just being, im always wanting something more. maybe im not willing enough to work for it either. maybe if i tried to get what i want then it would actually happen and i wouldn't sit here and complain. it just sucks because everytime i want something it goes wrong or it is something that i know i can't attain. life is a frustrating game my friends. things aren't handed to you on a silver platter, well at least not the things that actually matter. of course your parents can just give you everything that you think you want like money and clothes and a car but that doesn't mean that you are going to be happy. you can't be happy unless you know yourself and you know what you want and you know who you are. maybe im just increbidly naive. everything will come around...i hope
"Doubt that the stars are fire, doubt that the sun doth move,doubt truth to be a liar but never doubt i love."