look what you've done
yes look at what i've been doing. i moved to montreal was miserable because of my disattachment from my rob for 2 months and then for a quick fix i went and ended it by having sex with someone else after a night of mushrooms(which was a first for me). there was no plot here it just happened . i felt and feel regret. but also am confused , frusterated, happy, young feeling, disoriented. etc etc. my future no longer has a plan. i am now dating the guy i cheated on rob with and this also confuses me. i feel happy but also don't know if i am just distracted for now. like i said i feel very young.rob brought up not speaking to me anymore. and i don't know what to do about that either. things are difficult when you can't make decisions that make sense with what you have planned when you don't have anything planned anymore. i don't want to ever lose rob but it's his decision. this is very private but i definitely don't have anyone to talk to now so .... it was impossible to believe that i was "that" kind of person which i know i am being regarded as now but now all i want to say is everyone is capable. but i guess that's just me trying to make excuses. also i am now working 7 days a week straight. why am i here exactly?