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[meaghie_poison]

so yesterday in my research seminar we did an icebreaker thing where we had to talk about the diffrent lenses we see lyf through and one of them was sexuality and i talked about how idl the term bi and explained why and my fucking teacher said afterwards that me and the only other girl who touched on sexuality that we were doign the bi-dance? and she was like "or the i dont label myself. i love that one." to me because i talked about pansexuality and i was like fuck you!!! like, should i feel offended?? i feel like she's the kind of lesbian that thinks that the second you have non-straight feelings you're gay. that's fucking stupid. fuck her. like i don't fit in i was trying to explain that, i was explaining how i have a hard time talking about my gender because i dont fit in with girls and i don't fit in with guys tahts why i have so few fucking friends and i said that my sexuality's kind of the same thing but it's more of the sadomasochism thing that makes me unable to relate to other people and she just fucking dismissed me like that idk it really hurt. i'm not doing a fucking "bi-dance" i'm not "bi curious" i know i'm attracted to women and i dont give a shit and i'm not too worried about it because i think sexuality evolves throughout your life and i have my whole fucking life ahead of me to figure out what i want. i honestly don't like either gender, if i didn't like sex so much i'd probably just be alone because i don't like either it's fucking stupid gender's fucking stupid idk im getting myself all worked up over this.

does anyone else think this was slightly uncalled for? should i be hurt or am i overreacting?

edit: just wanted to say that the reason i'm so worked up and upset about this is because this is the class where i'm doing my project on kink and stuff so i'm going to have to be open about a lot more things that are a lot harder for me to talk about and now i feel like i can't. i shouldn't feel that way.