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gosh people make me so mad.. so mad it wants to make me cry..im sick of being so emotional! Jesse is mad at me and i hate it cuz hes my buddy and i care about him alot..and im afraid if i dont give him a chance ill lose him completely. but im afraid to give him a chance, im not a good relationship person..i don't trust alot of people..i trust 4 people in my life that my dad my mom joanie and God! and i just find it so hard to give someone a chance that doesnt have the same beliefs as i do! i did that once before and it wasnt so great..my faith was put down my that guy.. and i fell away from God so much it was scary..but i loved him..i truly need a person that will love me for me and that will have a passion for God thats intense... but also who i can trust, have fun with and not worry what he's doing behind my back... i was hurt emotionally and physically!<~ thats why im scared to fall for someone.. i need a guy that wants a serious relationship and not just a fling! ..but i dunno.. if i cant give you what you want im sorry.. but you need to understand my feelings and my decision! whether or not you end up still likeing me ..tomorrow or the next day.. its ok.. if you decide to move on just please dont stop talking to me..i care about you tooo much for you to do that to me!k? i love you though i always will..