where did everyone go?
all my friends are busy, erins left at home...alone again. everyones out having fun. steph promised to spend today with me...but shes not answering her phone. maybe shes ignoring me. john, ky and brandon are out together...without me...i feel so left out. its okay...i feel like shit. i'm not happy. not at all. i never really have been. i just wish that for one whole day i can get by without breaking down about something. i love brandon but sometimes the things he does breaks my heart. nothing major. i keep calling stephs house just to see if maybe shes just asleep or maybe she cant hear the phone at the moment...but i get the voice mail everytime. no love for erin. i'm surprised that i havent said anything about any of my major breakdowns like i used to. i guess ive gotten so used to them to where its not exactally a big deal. it may seem it at the time but i dont fuss about it later. some one please rescue me. i need a friend. do something.