hmm.
if only you knew. i accept you more than you think i do. you don't accept me for me. you don't accept the fact that i don't think and do the things you do. you wish i was more liek you. but i can't be. i don't want to be. i don't have to be. &if you don't want to accept me. than whats the point of wanting to be with me.
what do i have thats sooo special. or is it just your drunken influences that make you say the things you say to me. you play with me. more than ive ever been played with.its hurting me. &i don't know how to handle this situation. I'm not the type of person to push you off of me &tell you to stop. I'm not aggresive.
&yes i do have trust issues. for many different reasons. that are too personal for anybody even you to know. so i waited a week for you. &now i feel like i might have to wait another week to catch you on a day when your sober and know what your saying to me. will it work out?? i don't know.
but i was wiiling to give it another chance. i still am. i'm just more hessitant. &confused. i've heard oh.so.many things about you. and its overwhelming. even if all the stuff isn't true it still is a very overwhelming feeling.
I am who i am. I do what i do. &no ones gonna change me. unless your a big influence in my life and i'm worrying someone. so....how about following your own advice. it might help you alot.