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Kanpan Higashi [3:23 P.M.]: my bro has a gf but he stares at every ass in the world....
Kanpan Higashi [3:23 P.M.]: we are GREAT!
Starynightz99 [3:23 P.M.]: hahahaha....lol.....well thats keith for you.....thats good....have you guys thought about what happens when you guys go to college?
Kanpan Higashi [3:23 P.M.]: >><<
Kanpan Higashi [3:23 P.M.]: yes
Kanpan Higashi [3:24 P.M.]: we have
Starynightz99 [3:24 P.M.]: awwww......
Kanpan Higashi [3:24 P.M.]: thats the only thing
Kanpan Higashi [3:24 P.M.]: we are thinking about
Kanpan Higashi [3:24 P.M.]: and it really hurts to think about
Starynightz99 [3:24 P.M.]: im sowwie to bring it up....
Kanpan Higashi [3:24 P.M.]: its like, everyone tells you to be yourself and find the right person for you... but in every way possible life tries to drag you away from them....
Kanpan Higashi [3:24 P.M.]: its the most ironic thing ever
Starynightz99 [3:25 P.M.]: awwww......im sowwie......
Kanpan Higashi [3:25 P.M.]: don't be sorry... its gonna happen whether or not we talk about it
Starynightz99 [3:26 P.M.]: i know.....but it makes me sad to thin about that kinda stuff too...lol.....
Kanpan Higashi [3:27 P.M.]: I just feel like, well I know that if I don't goto college, I not getting anywhere in life economically... but what happens if the person you loved... meets someone else special... and slowly you drift apart because of the distance... I mean its like, so horrible to imagine... but yet it happens all the time the way our economy and living styles are.
Starynightz99 [3:28 P.M.]: awwww....yea.....where is she goin to college?
Kanpan Higashi [3:28 P.M.]: I mean when elliot finally came here, and you two got together, you had to move...
Kanpan Higashi [3:28 P.M.]: dunno yet
Starynightz99 [3:28 P.M.]: i know.......that was sad
Kanpan Higashi [3:28 P.M.]: and honestly... elliot has become much more worse off with you not here...
Starynightz99 [3:28 P.M.]: really??? y?
Kanpan Higashi [3:28 P.M.]: he just got grounded for 2 weeks
Kanpan Higashi [3:28 P.M.]: guess for what?
Starynightz99 [3:28 P.M.]: y?
Kanpan Higashi [3:29 P.M.]: smoking pot
Kanpan Higashi [3:29 P.M.]: >>
Kanpan Higashi [3:29 P.M.]: v.v
Starynightz99 [3:29 P.M.]: wow how did i know
Starynightz99 [3:29 P.M.]: today he got caught?
Kanpan Higashi [3:29 P.M.]: nope
Kanpan Higashi [3:29 P.M.]: it happened a few days ago
Starynightz99 [3:30 P.M.]: he so stupid.......::sigh:: but i can't do much about that while im down here...you know....
Kanpan Higashi [3:30 P.M.]: yeah
Kanpan Higashi [3:30 P.M.]: every since he stopped hanging out with certain people, its like he's so different
Kanpan Higashi [3:30 P.M.]: like dumber and stupider
Kanpan Higashi [3:31 P.M.]: he said he didn't even know what he was doing
Starynightz99 [3:31 P.M.]: really??? when?
wow...its like he took the words rite outta my mouth.....why is it that when you find someone...who you fall in "love" with...they seem to be dragged away from you....why did i have to leave....and it sadly hurts me to hear that he is doin badly without me.....ME....wtf did i do to make him not act like that....and i know that he does stupid shit...he always has....but what i've been hearing is that...hes really fucking up his life...and it hurts me!! it hurts me that i couldn't stay up there...maybe none of this would have happened.....but maybe it would...how the hell would i know what would have happened....but thats the only thing i want to know rite now...i'll never find out though....i want to know why i am STILL drawn to him.....no one else....its still him who i think about.....no more steve....wow...thats a shocker....but i don't think about him like i used to...i used to love steve.....anyone who knows me could tell you that one.....and i fucked up with him too....i never told him anything about how i felt.....wonder what would have happened if i told him....what if i never did those things to melissa and i still lived there.....and i miss them so much!!!! ohh yea...MAYBE i'll be there in another month....but what does that do for me.....it makes me miss them even more....when i leave....ohhh but i still will go up there.....so i can see all of their faces again....especially steves....this year.....b/c....i think hes moving soon.....and i have to say goodbye.....i have too! if i don't......i WILL DIE!!!! b/c even though i don't talk to him often he still means something to me....i've known that lil sucka for almost 8 years....and to think they are still the only people on my mind.....is there something wrong with me....why can't i let go of them....especially elliot...why?? I LOVE HIM!!!