Crush Crush Crush
I would like to begin by pointing out that I very much have a dear attachment to Jacob and plan to be with him for a very, very long time, if not forever; however, Dr James Owen is absolutely adorable! I can deny my attachment to him no longer. He is so wonderfully small and cheerful, his accent and voice being a point of great adoration. He is nearly always finding my eye when we pass, even at dinner, and of late I have taken every change possible to make small conversations with him. This of course bothers Jake. He would be beyond repair if he knew how much I liked James Owen. Yet, even knowing that, I have trouble keeping away.
I do not want to hurt Jake. It is the exact opposite. Unfortunately, for both of us, my crush on James Owen has taken leaps and bounds in the past two weeks. Tonight, he caught me in the hall and explained to me that he was a bit drunk. He was going to teach his BS Honors lecture! He had taken pain medication for his toothache (which he told me about yesterday at lunch) and when he had a few glasses of wine with dinner at the special thing with the staff, he became intoxicated! And, by God if I didn't think he was going to tell me he wanted me. He is extraordinarily attractive when he smiles...even with those darn teeth. I find them strangely endearing.
I feel a great load on my back, considering that Jake and I have had no less than three difficult, trying conversations about my crush on Owen, the last being Friday night and ending with "I just am sick of hearing about him!" I could not promise Jake that I would stay away from him or not speak to him, but I am being more conscious of how I am with James Owen in front of Jake. When I stopped off at his table at lunch today to compliment his lecture this morning, he asked if I would be popping in to his office this afternoon to discuss Friday's field trip. I told him I would be, and thank you very much. I was secretly complimented that he remembered I wanted to talk to him. I wonder if he thinks of me as often as I think of him...
This is a bad situation all around. Except for when James Owen smiles. Then, then it is worth it.
I do not want to hurt Jake. It is the exact opposite. Unfortunately, for both of us, my crush on James Owen has taken leaps and bounds in the past two weeks. Tonight, he caught me in the hall and explained to me that he was a bit drunk. He was going to teach his BS Honors lecture! He had taken pain medication for his toothache (which he told me about yesterday at lunch) and when he had a few glasses of wine with dinner at the special thing with the staff, he became intoxicated! And, by God if I didn't think he was going to tell me he wanted me. He is extraordinarily attractive when he smiles...even with those darn teeth. I find them strangely endearing.
I feel a great load on my back, considering that Jake and I have had no less than three difficult, trying conversations about my crush on Owen, the last being Friday night and ending with "I just am sick of hearing about him!" I could not promise Jake that I would stay away from him or not speak to him, but I am being more conscious of how I am with James Owen in front of Jake. When I stopped off at his table at lunch today to compliment his lecture this morning, he asked if I would be popping in to his office this afternoon to discuss Friday's field trip. I told him I would be, and thank you very much. I was secretly complimented that he remembered I wanted to talk to him. I wonder if he thinks of me as often as I think of him...
This is a bad situation all around. Except for when James Owen smiles. Then, then it is worth it.