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Shadow in the Mirror
I've lost my will, I've lost my way
I just stopped being me when I went away
I don't know why but I've lost myself
I don't know how but I'm someone else
I've come back now and hate what I see
A shadow in the mirror staring back at me
It seems so strange
This change
That occurred
While my vision was blurred
In the blink of an eye
By the whirlwind of life passing me by
In a flash
It's in the past
And I've lost control
I'm not whole
How did I let this happen?
My life's collapsing
All around
Crumbling to the ground
My head pounds
Echoing with the sound
Of reverberations
Of conversations
That should've gone differently
But because this has affected me
As I went along
It all went wrong
Little by little it was falling apart
I should've seen it coming from the very start
But I refused to open my eyes
I just hid on the inside
And now I've lost that part
I so desperately sought to protect in my heart
Now it's gone, I've lost it
My foolishness cost me it
I keep playing these games
It all ends up the same
With me hanging my head in shame
And my emotions and pride are the ones that get maimed
Somebody help to change me back
I don't belong anymore
Not while I'm empty in the core
Of my being
With everybody seeing
This shell of my former self
Walking around and talking to everybody else
Like nothing's wrong at all
But in actuality this wall
I've created has destroyed my interior
And this new me is inferior
Better off as a lightning rod
Cuz all my real friends see right through the facade
I gotta save myself
The hand is dealt
The pain's been felt
And I've got nothing else
My mind races binary
Everything's contrary
Intellectually
Deep into my thought process
This nonsense
Keeps holding me down, holding me back
Can't stop now, I've gotta react
Quick like the flash
A whiplash
Tearing through the barrier
Into restricted areas
These words are the carrier
It just keeps getting scarier
Day in and day out
Trying to determine exactly what this is about
Until my thoughts run dry like a drought
But I haven't a doubt
In this mind
Of mine
That in time
I'll be able to define
Just exactly
What this life for me
Is meant to be
Just wait, you'll see
It'll become clearer
As the future's drawing nearer
The shadows will fade
Until the shine of the blade
Becomes a bright
White light
In clear sight
You can't fight what's right
Or what's meant to happen
This world that seemed to be collapsing
Was just an illusion
Meant to cause confusion
But when all is said and done, it'll have changed nothing
Solid as a rock, without a flaw
Same as before, and just as raw
To the core of my being
These broken dreams
What you get is what you're seeing
At first, it was just suspected
Then the affect was detected
And now I've been affected
By living a life that was rejected
I've lost my will, I've lost my way
I just stopped being me when I went away
I don't know why but I've lost myself
I don't know how but I'm someone else
I've come back now and hate what I see
A shadow in the mirror staring back at me
-- Michael Basile
I've lost my will, I've lost my way
I just stopped being me when I went away
I don't know why but I've lost myself
I don't know how but I'm someone else
I've come back now and hate what I see
A shadow in the mirror staring back at me
It seems so strange
This change
That occurred
While my vision was blurred
In the blink of an eye
By the whirlwind of life passing me by
In a flash
It's in the past
And I've lost control
I'm not whole
How did I let this happen?
My life's collapsing
All around
Crumbling to the ground
My head pounds
Echoing with the sound
Of reverberations
Of conversations
That should've gone differently
But because this has affected me
As I went along
It all went wrong
Little by little it was falling apart
I should've seen it coming from the very start
But I refused to open my eyes
I just hid on the inside
And now I've lost that part
I so desperately sought to protect in my heart
Now it's gone, I've lost it
My foolishness cost me it
I keep playing these games
It all ends up the same
With me hanging my head in shame
And my emotions and pride are the ones that get maimed
Somebody help to change me back
I don't belong anymore
Not while I'm empty in the core
Of my being
With everybody seeing
This shell of my former self
Walking around and talking to everybody else
Like nothing's wrong at all
But in actuality this wall
I've created has destroyed my interior
And this new me is inferior
Better off as a lightning rod
Cuz all my real friends see right through the facade
I gotta save myself
The hand is dealt
The pain's been felt
And I've got nothing else
My mind races binary
Everything's contrary
Intellectually
Deep into my thought process
This nonsense
Keeps holding me down, holding me back
Can't stop now, I've gotta react
Quick like the flash
A whiplash
Tearing through the barrier
Into restricted areas
These words are the carrier
It just keeps getting scarier
Day in and day out
Trying to determine exactly what this is about
Until my thoughts run dry like a drought
But I haven't a doubt
In this mind
Of mine
That in time
I'll be able to define
Just exactly
What this life for me
Is meant to be
Just wait, you'll see
It'll become clearer
As the future's drawing nearer
The shadows will fade
Until the shine of the blade
Becomes a bright
White light
In clear sight
You can't fight what's right
Or what's meant to happen
This world that seemed to be collapsing
Was just an illusion
Meant to cause confusion
But when all is said and done, it'll have changed nothing
Solid as a rock, without a flaw
Same as before, and just as raw
To the core of my being
These broken dreams
What you get is what you're seeing
At first, it was just suspected
Then the affect was detected
And now I've been affected
By living a life that was rejected
I've lost my will, I've lost my way
I just stopped being me when I went away
I don't know why but I've lost myself
I don't know how but I'm someone else
I've come back now and hate what I see
A shadow in the mirror staring back at me
-- Michael Basile