Mail...
Yesterday my mom received a personalized copy of the suicide note in the mail. It's quite obvious that he was planning this for a while. He basically explained his reasoning (nothing we didn't already suspect), said his goodbyes, and said he was proud of me.
I got mail as well...and let me tell you, it's pretty unsettling getting mail from someone who's dead, and knew they'd be dead by the time you got it. No suicide note (yet), but he did send a bunch of reference materials. He was compiling information for a pamphlet about government and religion and America's future. He had told me about it over the phone, but silly me...I kinda figured that once he finished it, I'd be able to discuss it with him. I didn't realize he was preparing it as part of his goodbye.
He included a data CD with a bunch of Word documents about the issues, and I looked through it last night searching for something about his suicide...but nothing. So maybe I won't get any sort of note directly from him; just the stuff I got yesterday. I know it seems kinda morbid, but I hope I do get a copy of the note. I wish there wasn't a note at all, but since it's out there and his decision can't be taken back, I'd like to have the note for myself as well.
I got mail as well...and let me tell you, it's pretty unsettling getting mail from someone who's dead, and knew they'd be dead by the time you got it. No suicide note (yet), but he did send a bunch of reference materials. He was compiling information for a pamphlet about government and religion and America's future. He had told me about it over the phone, but silly me...I kinda figured that once he finished it, I'd be able to discuss it with him. I didn't realize he was preparing it as part of his goodbye.
He included a data CD with a bunch of Word documents about the issues, and I looked through it last night searching for something about his suicide...but nothing. So maybe I won't get any sort of note directly from him; just the stuff I got yesterday. I know it seems kinda morbid, but I hope I do get a copy of the note. I wish there wasn't a note at all, but since it's out there and his decision can't be taken back, I'd like to have the note for myself as well.