Does life really go on?
You probably all think I am nuts after that last posting...
I wish I were, it would be soo much easier to explain my emotioins and why I can not get over him...
I want to lock him in a room and make him kiss me, I want to make love one last time, I want him to hold me and look longingly into my eyes and tell me he is truely over me.... Then I will know I am crazy. Then I will get over and past him.
How can you even THINK about moving in with someone after only knowing them for like 3 months???
Jason and I had known eachother like 6 months (which is like 3 years in the gay community) before we even started discussing us going to the same school.
THIS IS NOT FAIR...and I am going to cry and whine and pout damnit! DAMNIT!
My whole gut aches...my head hurts....I can't sleep again at night.
What can I do, what should I do???
What happens if they move in together and they work out... I will have really lost him, and I will have to move on. I am soo scared! I am scared I will never find what Jason and I had in another person. I am scared that noone will love and appreciate me again. I am scared to admit that Jason and I didn't work out...
If we could have just talked... I think if we could just talk now. But will he listen? Will he care? Does he even know what love is???
Anyhow... I know better than to start my day out like this... I should stop worrying about it I suppose...
Someone help me! What should I say to him? Should I even say anything.... I truly want a second chance... but I know how his mind works, and I don't know if he will give it to me! I don't want to come between he and John....
UGH! Can't stand myself right now... must go!
I wish I were, it would be soo much easier to explain my emotioins and why I can not get over him...
I want to lock him in a room and make him kiss me, I want to make love one last time, I want him to hold me and look longingly into my eyes and tell me he is truely over me.... Then I will know I am crazy. Then I will get over and past him.
How can you even THINK about moving in with someone after only knowing them for like 3 months???
Jason and I had known eachother like 6 months (which is like 3 years in the gay community) before we even started discussing us going to the same school.
THIS IS NOT FAIR...and I am going to cry and whine and pout damnit! DAMNIT!
My whole gut aches...my head hurts....I can't sleep again at night.
What can I do, what should I do???
What happens if they move in together and they work out... I will have really lost him, and I will have to move on. I am soo scared! I am scared I will never find what Jason and I had in another person. I am scared that noone will love and appreciate me again. I am scared to admit that Jason and I didn't work out...
If we could have just talked... I think if we could just talk now. But will he listen? Will he care? Does he even know what love is???
Anyhow... I know better than to start my day out like this... I should stop worrying about it I suppose...
Someone help me! What should I say to him? Should I even say anything.... I truly want a second chance... but I know how his mind works, and I don't know if he will give it to me! I don't want to come between he and John....
UGH! Can't stand myself right now... must go!