Standing outside his fire!
Jason...
Maybe it has been seeing you these last few days, being able to touch you, see your smile, talk... perhaps I am just crazy... Each day gets harder as I think it should be getting easier.
I can't say that I am jealous, I can't even say that I want to be your bf anymore. What I can admit is that I love you, with all my heart. It's soo hard to stand outside the fire. It's soo hard to see you and not want to reach out and hold you.
I have been thinking about therapy lately. I have friends that go to the counselor on campus....I hope one of them can help me to move past you...
I was doing soo well, thought I was even happy... until you told me the news tonight. Of course, it is my own fault cause I dug it out of you... I guess I just can't believe that you no longer want me, even though you have been dating John for several months now. But I just can't believe that the two of you might be moving in together this summer.... In the back of my mind, I guess I had a small chance left, but now I feel all hope is gone!
Maybe I am crazy... I just felt that lately you might have been showing that you still did care, but now I realize that John is what is on your mind.
I want to scream and plead and beg for you to come back sometimes... I hurt soo bad right now... you just gave up on us..... we lived together and then you just gave up. Are you sure you should even be thinking about John moving in with you?
It is not my business.... I just hope you think it through...
Well, I am glad you will never read this. I wish we could actually have conversations and talk like this...
I pray for you every night Jason Paul....
I will always be here for you,
Shane
Maybe it has been seeing you these last few days, being able to touch you, see your smile, talk... perhaps I am just crazy... Each day gets harder as I think it should be getting easier.
I can't say that I am jealous, I can't even say that I want to be your bf anymore. What I can admit is that I love you, with all my heart. It's soo hard to stand outside the fire. It's soo hard to see you and not want to reach out and hold you.
I have been thinking about therapy lately. I have friends that go to the counselor on campus....I hope one of them can help me to move past you...
I was doing soo well, thought I was even happy... until you told me the news tonight. Of course, it is my own fault cause I dug it out of you... I guess I just can't believe that you no longer want me, even though you have been dating John for several months now. But I just can't believe that the two of you might be moving in together this summer.... In the back of my mind, I guess I had a small chance left, but now I feel all hope is gone!
Maybe I am crazy... I just felt that lately you might have been showing that you still did care, but now I realize that John is what is on your mind.
I want to scream and plead and beg for you to come back sometimes... I hurt soo bad right now... you just gave up on us..... we lived together and then you just gave up. Are you sure you should even be thinking about John moving in with you?
It is not my business.... I just hope you think it through...
Well, I am glad you will never read this. I wish we could actually have conversations and talk like this...
I pray for you every night Jason Paul....
I will always be here for you,
Shane