Jul 10, 2007 10:51
Wow... 9 weeks huh? The only reason I wanted to get on here was to post about teh bolly.... I wonder if he is still that man. It doesn't seem like he is, I dunno this band was so much to me when I was younger mcmoon=mellon collie moon = mellon collie and the infinite sadness. It's weird I broke my over 2 year listening ban on them for this CD was it worth it? Yea. I'm a different person from what I was then more stable more personality more selfesteem. I look back on those years of my life like I am lookin down on myself from my now exhalted state and I feel like I don't know that person. Who the hell was I 6 years ago? I feel as tho I were posessed throughout my teenage years it wasn't even me. The person I am now was stuck watching while this demon destroyed my life piece by piece. And he is still trying to get out everytime I put myself down there he is encouraging me.. You're worthless your nothing... my own personal montra.
I don't know that I was ever ready for this... it sounds so dumb that a CD could have so much of an effect on me but...
the smashing pumpkins