What is going on?
Did any of you ever watch The Joe Schmo Show on Spike? He has the best, "What is going on?!" audio that I can recall in my head at the moment.
I don't know what's going on. Stuff is happening - job, relationships, person growth, changing desires/focuses - and I don't know what for. Deep down there is the peace and joy of knowing God's got it all together. I'm not strong enough to maintain my focus on that without getting down. And you know? That's okay, too.
I know so much of what I'm going through now will make sense later. I'm older than I've ever been (and now I'm even older), but I know it still isn't "later" (and now I'm older still). Huh. I mentioned the idea at needing a lot of patience this year. What I didn't consider is the impact that would have on my attitude. I don't think I wait impatiently, but I almost come to a standstill, it seems. Lame-o! Dig a bit deeper and stay diligent, my friends. There is still so much to be thankful for!! Like Hey Arnold! for example!
I'm not sure if you know, but apparently David - you know, the guy that killed Goliath and wrote all the psalms - was overjoyed one moment, sad and depressed the next. It's a bit comforting to know that a man after God's own heart had troubles like that, too. =)
That is to say, sometimes, you just have to keep pressing on.