Swim Log: Day 4 et al
So. Monday.
GOALS for 4th time: 2 laps free, 1 each breast, side and back. 75 seconds treading, 12 pull ups.
ACHIEVED: 2 laps free, 2 laps back, 1 lap breast and side. 90 seconds treading 24 pull ups.
You can say well done, except I think I shouldn't have gone today at all. I was SO tired. Didn't realise it until I got in the water though. My arms are defintely getting stronger. My legs were a little wobbly. Had to use the cane to and from the pool and parking lot (and I had a long discussion with the attendant about the IDIOCY of blocking the handicapped parking all summer, every summer.) and worried about the stairs and the slipperiness etc. Stretching before and after swimming definitely, definitely helps though. Even though I am tired as hell, I am not cramped up or in much pain, so that's HUGE! And for the record, my arms are getting stronger, possibly my legs too... but my WAIST, which I need to get smaller so I can fit into the damn dress (whichever one I choose) for the wedding in 3 weeks, is NOT getting smaller!!! ARGH.
When I went for my walk on Saturday morning I took 78 pics of the River walk. mostly flowers and cool shapes and stuff just to get my creativity back in gear. I have only just now uploaded them and it will take forever to sort and fuss. I'm hoping it does my brain some good. I also took 15 other pics, including some of a very cool candle melt. You know what I love most about photography? The composition. Not the subject itself, but the composition. Thinking about how to turn an ordinary subject into a picture poem. I'm hoping that I can use at least some of the pics for my card making.
Gonna be bloody HOT for the next few days and I am trying to imagine myself doing housewifey chores. I like them so much better (as much as I ever like housewifey chores, that is) when I can have the windows open, but there's no way this week. I have the A/C off and wondows open first thing in themorning, but that's when I go swimming. Not a chance I will do housework AND swim in the mornings. Nope, nope nope. Gotta be realistic.
The forced writing I did in previous post has helped a bit with my brain (thank you tjoel2 !) but it has also unleashed a lot of other memories of other people I have let go. There's some sadness and anger still. I'm not worried about the sadness - it means I cared. But I have to get rid of the residual anger. And I also have to figure out if I am angry at myself or angry at them. Either way, it's time to let it go.
It's also time to take job hunting seriously. I just don't know what to do next...
Mondays are boring.
EDIT: Well, just got call to go volunteer, so that shoots my nap time this afternoon. I was supposed to go watch Renee play pool tonight, but there's no way I will be able to go do that. So I will either stay in or go to Elaine's house to watch FOOTBALL tonight. Close to home, no driving. Yay for volunteering! But boo for no nap time this afternoon!
GOALS for 4th time: 2 laps free, 1 each breast, side and back. 75 seconds treading, 12 pull ups.
ACHIEVED: 2 laps free, 2 laps back, 1 lap breast and side. 90 seconds treading 24 pull ups.
You can say well done, except I think I shouldn't have gone today at all. I was SO tired. Didn't realise it until I got in the water though. My arms are defintely getting stronger. My legs were a little wobbly. Had to use the cane to and from the pool and parking lot (and I had a long discussion with the attendant about the IDIOCY of blocking the handicapped parking all summer, every summer.) and worried about the stairs and the slipperiness etc. Stretching before and after swimming definitely, definitely helps though. Even though I am tired as hell, I am not cramped up or in much pain, so that's HUGE! And for the record, my arms are getting stronger, possibly my legs too... but my WAIST, which I need to get smaller so I can fit into the damn dress (whichever one I choose) for the wedding in 3 weeks, is NOT getting smaller!!! ARGH.
When I went for my walk on Saturday morning I took 78 pics of the River walk. mostly flowers and cool shapes and stuff just to get my creativity back in gear. I have only just now uploaded them and it will take forever to sort and fuss. I'm hoping it does my brain some good. I also took 15 other pics, including some of a very cool candle melt. You know what I love most about photography? The composition. Not the subject itself, but the composition. Thinking about how to turn an ordinary subject into a picture poem. I'm hoping that I can use at least some of the pics for my card making.
Gonna be bloody HOT for the next few days and I am trying to imagine myself doing housewifey chores. I like them so much better (as much as I ever like housewifey chores, that is) when I can have the windows open, but there's no way this week. I have the A/C off and wondows open first thing in themorning, but that's when I go swimming. Not a chance I will do housework AND swim in the mornings. Nope, nope nope. Gotta be realistic.
The forced writing I did in previous post has helped a bit with my brain (thank you tjoel2 !) but it has also unleashed a lot of other memories of other people I have let go. There's some sadness and anger still. I'm not worried about the sadness - it means I cared. But I have to get rid of the residual anger. And I also have to figure out if I am angry at myself or angry at them. Either way, it's time to let it go.
It's also time to take job hunting seriously. I just don't know what to do next...
Mondays are boring.
EDIT: Well, just got call to go volunteer, so that shoots my nap time this afternoon. I was supposed to go watch Renee play pool tonight, but there's no way I will be able to go do that. So I will either stay in or go to Elaine's house to watch FOOTBALL tonight. Close to home, no driving. Yay for volunteering! But boo for no nap time this afternoon!