not completely well
well kayla still isn't well so i am trying to contact the vet and see what is going on. well i got a phone call from the ex, like nothing ever happened. that he wants us to be friends NOW. and i just can't do that. i don't even know if i can be his friend later. i loved him and he left me. i wanted a future and well i never cuold figure out what he wanted. i just can't be his friend now. i call myself doing that i would hate him. and i rather take the time i need than sacrifice one more thing for him. i need this time to figure out what I need. i need a truthful friend and unless he can truly be that then a friendship can't even exist in the future. but i just need to be myself for a while.