The stony path of life (15/?)
Title: The stony path of life
Author: McAwesome1993
Pairing: Callie/Arizona, Callie/OC, Arizona/OC
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Post 6x19; Arizona struggels with herself and Callie's decision.
Disclaimer: I own NOTHING! Everything and everyone in this fanfic belongs to Shonda Rhimes and ABC.
A/N1: I used the fantastic song ,,My immortal'' by the fantastic band Evanescence.
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15. My immortal
I'm so tired of being here,
Supressed by all my childish fears.
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave,
‘Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won’t leave me alone!
These wounds won’t seem to heal,
This pain is just too real,
There’s just too much that time cannot erase!
I need to get out of here. Right now! I get up and run out of the room, out of the church, out of her life. I don’t care about my car or that it’s raining. I just run away as fast as I can. I make a quick stop to take off my heels and start running again. I don’t know where I head or how long I run. I just know that I need to get as far away as possible. After what feels like hours I stop and look around. I’m in the park, our park. I go straigght to our bench, where we used to eat lunch and spend some time together. I sit down and stare into the sky. I’m still crying. I can’t stop. For a second I want to call Teddy or Mark but then I remember that they’re at the wedding. And I can’t call Charlott now. She left so I can be happy with Calliope but now … She left for nothing! I pull my knees up to my chest and bury my head between them. I’m glad they marry in the evening. So the park is empty. Thank god! I don’t want to look like a maniac!
When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears,
When you screamed I’d fight away all of your fears,
And I held your hand through all of these years,
But you still have all of me!
I remember all the times we sat here. We could forget every trouble and every person here. We could just be! Together! The day we went here to eat lunch together and she was so nervous about how she would get her job back and I needed to calm her down. In the end she not only got her job back but also got promoted. These were happy times. The beginning of our relationship. The beginning of the best time I’ve ever had. When one of us was angry or sad we went here. Mostly we didn’t even talk. We just sat there cuddling and enjoying the closeness and the silence. We were safe! This was our safe place!
You used to captivate me by your resonating light,
Now I’m bounded by the life you left behind!
Your face, it haunts
My once pleasant dreams,
Your voice, it chased away
All the sanity in me!
These wounds won’t seem to heal,
This pain is just too real,
There’s just too much that time cannot erase!
I lie down on the bench. I feel terrible I lost everything! The rain falls down on my face and the raindrops mix with my tears. I can’t see ,y future without her. No matter how hard I try to imagine my life without her in 10, 20 or 50 years from now, I can’t! I always see her by my side.
,,I don’t love you!’’
The words still echo in my ears. I can’t forget the look in her eyes. They weren’t saying the same. They were saying ,,I love you, but I can’t be with you!’’, nothing else. That is what makes me feel bad. We both want to be together, but we can’t be! This is so unfair!
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone!
But though you’re still with me, I’ve been alone, all alone!
I close my eyes. I’m exhausted. I just wanna sleep. And never wake up again. Why should I? Living without Calliope … I can’t imagine that! I just wanna d …
What’s happening? Am I dreaming? I open my eyes. No, it’s not a dream. This is real! Calliope is kissing me!
You still have all of me!
Author: McAwesome1993
Pairing: Callie/Arizona, Callie/OC, Arizona/OC
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Post 6x19; Arizona struggels with herself and Callie's decision.
Disclaimer: I own NOTHING! Everything and everyone in this fanfic belongs to Shonda Rhimes and ABC.
A/N1: I used the fantastic song ,,My immortal'' by the fantastic band Evanescence.
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15. My immortal
I'm so tired of being here,
Supressed by all my childish fears.
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave,
‘Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won’t leave me alone!
These wounds won’t seem to heal,
This pain is just too real,
There’s just too much that time cannot erase!
I need to get out of here. Right now! I get up and run out of the room, out of the church, out of her life. I don’t care about my car or that it’s raining. I just run away as fast as I can. I make a quick stop to take off my heels and start running again. I don’t know where I head or how long I run. I just know that I need to get as far away as possible. After what feels like hours I stop and look around. I’m in the park, our park. I go straigght to our bench, where we used to eat lunch and spend some time together. I sit down and stare into the sky. I’m still crying. I can’t stop. For a second I want to call Teddy or Mark but then I remember that they’re at the wedding. And I can’t call Charlott now. She left so I can be happy with Calliope but now … She left for nothing! I pull my knees up to my chest and bury my head between them. I’m glad they marry in the evening. So the park is empty. Thank god! I don’t want to look like a maniac!
When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears,
When you screamed I’d fight away all of your fears,
And I held your hand through all of these years,
But you still have all of me!
I remember all the times we sat here. We could forget every trouble and every person here. We could just be! Together! The day we went here to eat lunch together and she was so nervous about how she would get her job back and I needed to calm her down. In the end she not only got her job back but also got promoted. These were happy times. The beginning of our relationship. The beginning of the best time I’ve ever had. When one of us was angry or sad we went here. Mostly we didn’t even talk. We just sat there cuddling and enjoying the closeness and the silence. We were safe! This was our safe place!
You used to captivate me by your resonating light,
Now I’m bounded by the life you left behind!
Your face, it haunts
My once pleasant dreams,
Your voice, it chased away
All the sanity in me!
These wounds won’t seem to heal,
This pain is just too real,
There’s just too much that time cannot erase!
I lie down on the bench. I feel terrible I lost everything! The rain falls down on my face and the raindrops mix with my tears. I can’t see ,y future without her. No matter how hard I try to imagine my life without her in 10, 20 or 50 years from now, I can’t! I always see her by my side.
,,I don’t love you!’’
The words still echo in my ears. I can’t forget the look in her eyes. They weren’t saying the same. They were saying ,,I love you, but I can’t be with you!’’, nothing else. That is what makes me feel bad. We both want to be together, but we can’t be! This is so unfair!
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone!
But though you’re still with me, I’ve been alone, all alone!
I close my eyes. I’m exhausted. I just wanna sleep. And never wake up again. Why should I? Living without Calliope … I can’t imagine that! I just wanna d …
What’s happening? Am I dreaming? I open my eyes. No, it’s not a dream. This is real! Calliope is kissing me!
You still have all of me!