NoteTaken:
I used to take a lot of things for granted, and for that I'll have to apologize.
not necessarily over the web, but one day, I'd like to do it in person.
Or at least before my time is up.
After some things that happened tonight, I've seen how some guys are
and what type of guy I AM, and what type of people I allow close to me.
I assumed way too much without listening, and took for granted the things I recieved and that ultimately ended what could have been the best relationship of my life. But I wasn't prepared for the things that I talked about and spooked myself and hurt someone I considered more than a best friend. I don't know if I'll ever be able to forgive myself for the things I've done in the past, but I am learning to live with those mistakes and to not dwell on them as I usually would have done.
I was obsessed with being in love with Grace from afar for too long.
I couldn't handle that Rebecca was always just barely out of reach.
I didn't want to think that Lauren could move on with out me.
I couldn't stand not being able to talk to Anna when I wanted.
I failed at being everything Shieanne needed so that she felt secure.
I've definitely grown up over the years.
Love doesn't last over time. First loves, unless strong enough, are just nice reminders.
Sometimes a guy has to stretch a little more for the girl.
Women definitely move on when they're ready.
People are seasonal. Don't become so attached to the ones that are supposed to leave.
Being everything is much MUCH harder than it seems at first. Don't overdo it.
I'm finally at the point where I can look back on my life and only remember good things. I don't regret very much, but I'm done worrying about what I could have done.
I'm going to make a better tomorrow.
It begins.
not necessarily over the web, but one day, I'd like to do it in person.
Or at least before my time is up.
After some things that happened tonight, I've seen how some guys are
and what type of guy I AM, and what type of people I allow close to me.
I assumed way too much without listening, and took for granted the things I recieved and that ultimately ended what could have been the best relationship of my life. But I wasn't prepared for the things that I talked about and spooked myself and hurt someone I considered more than a best friend. I don't know if I'll ever be able to forgive myself for the things I've done in the past, but I am learning to live with those mistakes and to not dwell on them as I usually would have done.
I was obsessed with being in love with Grace from afar for too long.
I couldn't handle that Rebecca was always just barely out of reach.
I didn't want to think that Lauren could move on with out me.
I couldn't stand not being able to talk to Anna when I wanted.
I failed at being everything Shieanne needed so that she felt secure.
I've definitely grown up over the years.
Love doesn't last over time. First loves, unless strong enough, are just nice reminders.
Sometimes a guy has to stretch a little more for the girl.
Women definitely move on when they're ready.
People are seasonal. Don't become so attached to the ones that are supposed to leave.
Being everything is much MUCH harder than it seems at first. Don't overdo it.
I'm finally at the point where I can look back on my life and only remember good things. I don't regret very much, but I'm done worrying about what I could have done.
I'm going to make a better tomorrow.
It begins.