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These past couple days have been more than I can handle. First, I felt I almost lost one of the most important people in the world to me, my best friend of 15 years. Robbie and I went out Thursday, having a great time together, as always, then I get a call and shit goes horribly wrong. I was just talking to Robbie about it and he's getting upset and I understand so I'm calm, then he says "If you ever talk to her again, don't talk to me". Well, I fucking lost it. That's been a fear of mine for a long time anyway. I always felt Aimee had a problem with me and Robbie and I felt Robbie had a problem with me and Aimee, well then there's that... apparently I was right. But, Robbie and I were up all night and we talked shit through, he didn't mean what he said at all and Aimee and I talked things out and everything is fine. So yay for that.
Then last night Robbie puts me in a bad situation. And when I go to defend the other person, Robbie flips out on me and says he's done with me. WTF? I told him that if he were to say that it was over between us, that he better mean it, because I'm not going though the pain of having my heart ripped out because of something he says out of hurt or anger just for him to take it back and say "oh nevermind". I forgave him this time and I told him if he did that again that would be it. But then I won't know what to do with myself. He's said it himself, (might be cheesy, but it's true) we are too perfect for each other to just have happened to get together. We are made for each other, end of story. We're supposed to be together.
Robbie and I once again worked through shit, but I'm still a little upset about the whole situation. That was fucked up of me on my part to do what I was told to do, but I was hoping it would have turned out differently. Yeah, I'm dumb and naive. Whatever.
But before everything happened last night, we talked about how we want to raise our kids and just talked about the great stuff that's going to happen. He wants to get married as soon as we move in together. I would love to, but I want my wedding. *smile* Even though this morning we almost decided to just go ahead and get married today. Then he said he wanted the more traditional way, with rings and all that. He's just trying to get out of it. ;) Haha. Actually like I said he's the one wanting to get married as soon as possible. He even went on a tangent the other night to Bub and Dub and Bubba's great uncle, I think, about the plan for the next five years. Apparently, he thought we were going to have two kids in the next two years. HA! No, I set him straight. ;)
Robbie is at Guitar Center right now with Richard and Chad in Knoxville. He really wanted me to be with him the first time he got to go to one. Aww. But, there was no way I could have went any where with as on edge as I was this morning. He's called me a few times already, he's "drooling". They have HIS guitar he's been wanting so bad. I'm making pretty decent money, I'm going to save a little bit and get him one. If he doesn't find a way to beat me to it. It might take a little while cause I have bills that have piled up, I'm trying to get in line and they are pretty expensive, but I don't care. But shhhh. :)
Then last night Robbie puts me in a bad situation. And when I go to defend the other person, Robbie flips out on me and says he's done with me. WTF? I told him that if he were to say that it was over between us, that he better mean it, because I'm not going though the pain of having my heart ripped out because of something he says out of hurt or anger just for him to take it back and say "oh nevermind". I forgave him this time and I told him if he did that again that would be it. But then I won't know what to do with myself. He's said it himself, (might be cheesy, but it's true) we are too perfect for each other to just have happened to get together. We are made for each other, end of story. We're supposed to be together.
Robbie and I once again worked through shit, but I'm still a little upset about the whole situation. That was fucked up of me on my part to do what I was told to do, but I was hoping it would have turned out differently. Yeah, I'm dumb and naive. Whatever.
But before everything happened last night, we talked about how we want to raise our kids and just talked about the great stuff that's going to happen. He wants to get married as soon as we move in together. I would love to, but I want my wedding. *smile* Even though this morning we almost decided to just go ahead and get married today. Then he said he wanted the more traditional way, with rings and all that. He's just trying to get out of it. ;) Haha. Actually like I said he's the one wanting to get married as soon as possible. He even went on a tangent the other night to Bub and Dub and Bubba's great uncle, I think, about the plan for the next five years. Apparently, he thought we were going to have two kids in the next two years. HA! No, I set him straight. ;)
Robbie is at Guitar Center right now with Richard and Chad in Knoxville. He really wanted me to be with him the first time he got to go to one. Aww. But, there was no way I could have went any where with as on edge as I was this morning. He's called me a few times already, he's "drooling". They have HIS guitar he's been wanting so bad. I'm making pretty decent money, I'm going to save a little bit and get him one. If he doesn't find a way to beat me to it. It might take a little while cause I have bills that have piled up, I'm trying to get in line and they are pretty expensive, but I don't care. But shhhh. :)