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"What I need is a good defense
Because I'm feeling like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed to the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I've ever known of a love"
I had a revelation today (I can't say how long it's going to last, but hopefully I'm through with this shit). If I take into consideration how much of a dick this kid can be sometimes, and this new information about him being an absolute porn freak, I can safely conclude that he is not worth my time, energy or breathe. I don't care how good of a hook-up he is, I'm better than that. He's a good friend, but as a friend with benefits he blows. What kind of loser thinks that just because you do something once, you have like an all access pass to do it whenever you want. Last time I checked it was MY body and I called the shots regarding it. Whatever. I'm so pissed at myself for letting it go on so long, but as of right now there will no more hooking up!!!!!!!! And I seriously hope that I don't become some stupid weak girl and cave the next time I see him because I really really don't want to hook up with him anymore.
On another note, today was my LAST DAY OF CLASSES!! And I got my refund check so I can go SHOPPING! I'm so excited. We're going on field trips tomorrow...I'm wicked excited. The science museum first, then the mall, then we're going to see X-Men. After tomorrow I'm pretty much stuck on campus so that I can study for finals so I need to have fun tomorrow. I'm excited to go home, but at the same time I don't want to deal with my parent's shit. They need to realize I'm 20 and get over this telling me what to shit because it doesn't fly with me. I'm at the point where I would rather take a semester off of school, save up money and then come back than deal with their ish. They are ridiculous.
I'm going to work though.........Updates will be posted soon on how quickly I give in, or how cool I am for being strong!
P.S.....Lunch today? AWESOME! =)