oh summer....how i love thee....
It's seriously scaring me how much I am loving summer right now. Last summer I was really upset and wanted to get back to GV the second I left. This summer, however, has been extremely different and it's definitely creeping me out. I really have no reason to love the summer as much as I do. I still don't have a job which is scaring the shit out of me, my mother is still as crazy, I have literally no money, and my dad is even more of an asshole than before. But I guess I love it more because I'm growing up. I'm less dependent on my friends now and am more focused on myself I guess. I miss them, but I'm not dying to see them. I've come to know who my real friends are and who has and always will be there for me. I have amazing friends from GV that have helped me see that so I can bring it home to WL. I don't care anymore if I'm hanging out with the "cool kids" and if we are doing something "cool." I love my crazy nights with Liz, Frank, Justin, and the gang. We always have a great time doing crazy shit and raising hell. But I'm also beginning to figure out that we were such assholes in high school, and I feel bad that we made so many people feel so bad and unaccepted, but I guess we just got caught in the moment. It was a phase we went through. Now I'm realizing that some people haven't made it out of that phase yet. And I'm ready to move on. Katelyn watched me be this horrible person from the sidelines and somehow still thought that I was worth staying friends with. She still stayed close and became someone who I understand and admire now, even though I didn't understand her 2 and 3 years ago. My answer to all of this crap I was going through was standing right in front of me, and I get it now because of her. Now I hope I can help her in some way. I believe she's one of those people that are put in my life to teach me something, other than be a best friend to her. It's insane how much people evolve. But so exciting.
Anyway, that's my insight into the crazy world that is my brain at the moment. I don't expect anyone who reads it to understand me. Just continue scrolling down the page and smile and nod. :-)
Much love
<3 Sam
or Clam in some cities...:-P
Anyway, that's my insight into the crazy world that is my brain at the moment. I don't expect anyone who reads it to understand me. Just continue scrolling down the page and smile and nod. :-)
Much love
<3 Sam
or Clam in some cities...:-P