vay-cay-shun
so i have returned to livejournal after 2 months of non-postage. to explain stuff. hurrah?
i apologize to all of those who have been attempting to contact me through various formats and receiving absolutely no response. i'm being lame at the moment but one day (soon hopefully) i'll be able to sustain prolonged social contact with my friends once again.
life..is...umm..i don't know. i've had a couple breakdowns at work involving me sobbing hysterically and the kids having to comfort me. i've lost focus as to why i was still working at childhelp. i tried to hang out with my friends but instead just withdrew even more. all i want to do is sleep.i've stopped talking to people completely. half the time i am okay and then 5 minutes later i am a mess. annnnnnnd i've started watching soap operas again. the horror.
i'm trying desperately to obtain some perspective on things. but the good news is that the past two weeks i have absolutely loved working at childhelp. the staff has been incredibly supportive and switched my room in hopes stopping me from burning out (7 months working there- 8 is the average time allotted before someone quits) and also i went to see the harlem globetrotters with some of the kids and that was surprisingly awesome. i'm taking some medication now to help with the anxiety, so no more panic attacks. and i was able to hang out with people and feel normal this past week. ALSO i am on vacation in florida.
things are looking up. start expecting more rants and raves about frivolous things because that's what i do when feeling semi-normal.
also, vicky if you read this- i JUST received your package and it made my day. send me your address so i can send you a letterrrrrrr.
i apologize to all of those who have been attempting to contact me through various formats and receiving absolutely no response. i'm being lame at the moment but one day (soon hopefully) i'll be able to sustain prolonged social contact with my friends once again.
life..is...umm..i don't know. i've had a couple breakdowns at work involving me sobbing hysterically and the kids having to comfort me. i've lost focus as to why i was still working at childhelp. i tried to hang out with my friends but instead just withdrew even more. all i want to do is sleep.i've stopped talking to people completely. half the time i am okay and then 5 minutes later i am a mess. annnnnnnd i've started watching soap operas again. the horror.
i'm trying desperately to obtain some perspective on things. but the good news is that the past two weeks i have absolutely loved working at childhelp. the staff has been incredibly supportive and switched my room in hopes stopping me from burning out (7 months working there- 8 is the average time allotted before someone quits) and also i went to see the harlem globetrotters with some of the kids and that was surprisingly awesome. i'm taking some medication now to help with the anxiety, so no more panic attacks. and i was able to hang out with people and feel normal this past week. ALSO i am on vacation in florida.
things are looking up. start expecting more rants and raves about frivolous things because that's what i do when feeling semi-normal.
also, vicky if you read this- i JUST received your package and it made my day. send me your address so i can send you a letterrrrrrr.