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so it was pretty awesome that i ended my last entry with "where is the snow?" and then it snowed the next day. woohoo. let's pretend i have the awesome power of having mother nature listen to me. YES I AM STORM FROM X-MEN. don't piss me off or i'll have lightning strike you down.
the bad part of it snowing on sunday was that i was at childhelp, which is 40 minutes away (usually) from my apartment and also is located on some pretty treacherous back roads and has a hill named "danger hill"- there were several accidents and threats of having to stay overnight, but in the end, only one person required medical help and i was able to leave.
recently, i have been trying to space myself from my dad, brenda, jay, and nate. just because it's too stressful. unfortunately, it isn't working. jay had his interview at childhelp and my dad keeps contacting me with all these little pieces of information regarding it and when i ask questions such as "where did they tell him he would work?" dad has no idea because he stops listening. my brother, on the other hand, called me last night to ask me if i remembered his password to his vcu application- from home. so now i am very confused because here is my brother still LIVING AT HOME and APPLYING TO COLLEGE. what the fuck.
and i just called and talked to my dad and jay did his observation in my group home. dad seemed excited about this and was oblivious to the fact that i was not. until i told him. and he still doesn't understand, but whatever. i'm already incredibly insecure in my job and my abilities there- i really don't need my stepbrother (whom i'm not that close to) being thrown in the mix. just the thought of it makes me feel like the walls are closing in. and i know deep down it's really not that big of a deal, but right now any small change in my life just throws me off.
whatever.
the bad part of it snowing on sunday was that i was at childhelp, which is 40 minutes away (usually) from my apartment and also is located on some pretty treacherous back roads and has a hill named "danger hill"- there were several accidents and threats of having to stay overnight, but in the end, only one person required medical help and i was able to leave.
recently, i have been trying to space myself from my dad, brenda, jay, and nate. just because it's too stressful. unfortunately, it isn't working. jay had his interview at childhelp and my dad keeps contacting me with all these little pieces of information regarding it and when i ask questions such as "where did they tell him he would work?" dad has no idea because he stops listening. my brother, on the other hand, called me last night to ask me if i remembered his password to his vcu application- from home. so now i am very confused because here is my brother still LIVING AT HOME and APPLYING TO COLLEGE. what the fuck.
and i just called and talked to my dad and jay did his observation in my group home. dad seemed excited about this and was oblivious to the fact that i was not. until i told him. and he still doesn't understand, but whatever. i'm already incredibly insecure in my job and my abilities there- i really don't need my stepbrother (whom i'm not that close to) being thrown in the mix. just the thought of it makes me feel like the walls are closing in. and i know deep down it's really not that big of a deal, but right now any small change in my life just throws me off.
whatever.