Ancient Blue Ninja Hunter
Well, yeah errr... So my Brobos coming home to take his computer away :( So this is my update to say that if you really like me, you'll call. My updates shall be far less frequent. Back to the old paper and pen deal, which might actually be nice because it gave me reasons to go places and be outside for a while. I must purchase a new journal though. Mine are all full. Speaking of my brother though, he was in my dream last night. It was the one dream ive had with him in it since he left where he didnt leave the dream without saying goodbye. He did announce his gayness in the pool though. Weird.
So Aiden and I have agreed to work things out and try to be more understanding of the other, which is fantastic because i really missed the shit out of him. I was losing my mind trying to convince myself i didnt care. I was numb to everything, couldnt enjoy food, didnt laugh at normally funny things... It was horrible, but I feel like my human self again. He is the sweetest, most thoughtful person i have ever been with. I never have to wonder how he feels about me because he makes so clear in his actions. Its an amazing feeling. Monday, I was bitching about my bleeding lady parts all morning, and when we stopped at a store to get "more film" and he came out and handed me a box of my favorite tampons, some Midol, and a yummy juice so I could take some and feel better right away... I hated myself so much for ever hurting his tender little feelings with my evil biting remarks. It was at that precise moment where i realized that i really am an insensitive asshole. I'll try to work on it though. I want to be better for him.
Hmmm... so it appears that things are working out for me i guess. which scares the piss out of me because almost always after i make that statement, attempting to feel even slightly optimistic, shit goes pear shaped.
I dont know what else to say. Im not going to jump off a building anytime soon. Someday though... someday...
Garden State was amazing, as i suspected.
Girraffes live in africa.
I fell asleep in the Coan Zone last night.
Pink Pink Pink Pink....
Bye. <3
So Aiden and I have agreed to work things out and try to be more understanding of the other, which is fantastic because i really missed the shit out of him. I was losing my mind trying to convince myself i didnt care. I was numb to everything, couldnt enjoy food, didnt laugh at normally funny things... It was horrible, but I feel like my human self again. He is the sweetest, most thoughtful person i have ever been with. I never have to wonder how he feels about me because he makes so clear in his actions. Its an amazing feeling. Monday, I was bitching about my bleeding lady parts all morning, and when we stopped at a store to get "more film" and he came out and handed me a box of my favorite tampons, some Midol, and a yummy juice so I could take some and feel better right away... I hated myself so much for ever hurting his tender little feelings with my evil biting remarks. It was at that precise moment where i realized that i really am an insensitive asshole. I'll try to work on it though. I want to be better for him.
Hmmm... so it appears that things are working out for me i guess. which scares the piss out of me because almost always after i make that statement, attempting to feel even slightly optimistic, shit goes pear shaped.
I dont know what else to say. Im not going to jump off a building anytime soon. Someday though... someday...
Garden State was amazing, as i suspected.
Girraffes live in africa.
I fell asleep in the Coan Zone last night.
Pink Pink Pink Pink....
Bye. <3