the sky wasn't grey, nor blue. it was full of spring, but windy with winter, standing at the top of the staircase i could see it all, and not be seen. the light changed, the cars collided silently. i blinked. then blinked again, pivoted on the ball of my right slippered toe, and held the bathroom doorjam with white and cold purple fingertips. it ( Read more... )

so, i was talking to someone today, and they said "well, don't feel obligated". i think i like that. not being obligated. because really, when i have done things out of obligation it's been a half assed attempt at pleasing someone, or a group of people. i really haven't done much lately that has been an obligation, and it feels great. i've truly ( Read more... )

so, all i wanted to do was a couple of loads of wash. but of course, i am neurotic. i did the couple of loads of laundry, then commmmmmmpletely rearranged my room. as in.. i have had this tapestry hanging on my wall foreeeeever and i took it down and im washing it and relocating it. also..i no longer have a bed. well in fact i do, only it is in my ( Read more... )

eff it. i had this whole thing written up. and then i lost it. becuase my computer is dumb and can't open two brousers at once. browsers? i'll rewrite it tomorrow.

first of all..i like the friends i have. amen to the mary tyler moore jacket. and a hallelujah to make up sex. ((relax im kidding ( Read more... )

this was my night/day thus far ( Read more... )

SEAN ( Read more... )

this is not even going to be worth reading, i just felt the need to update. lots of people died this past week at the nursing home. mildly depressing to me, although, they lived long full lives. somedays, though, i feel like that place is just a holding station until death. some sort of surreal world where everyone who comes in knows that everyone ( Read more... )

im in the stupid computer lab at mcc, waiting for prof burm to come and give me the packet of 20 short stories i have to read and edit and critique over break ( Read more... )

yesterday was invigorating. it's so much different with audience response. woah. today is going to rock if that's the case, because i have a feeling that a handful of middle adged adults mixed with a few twentysomethings act differently in a croud than an audience loaded with college students. i hope we get cat calls and woops and loud obnoxious ( Read more... )