You don't being me anything but down.

[maybe_some_day]

I hate myself. I really do.

I'm always the one preaching that you don't need someone else to make yourself happy. That you have to be happy on your own before you can let someone else make you happy.

I thought that I was better than this. Stronger than this.

I don't understand why I am not good enough. Why I will never be good enough. Why I am STUPID enough to waste these last 3 years.

I don't know what to do with myself now. I try and tell myself that its not me, but I can't help it. I feel really really lost.