brain barf
To Aunt M: I wish I new a good way to tell you that I forgive you. I understand why you cracked/snapped/broke. Because I think I reached that point too. And even though I disagree with how you raised your kids, two of them turned out fairly okay so you must not have done so badly.
To Aunt D: I wish you knew how much damage you've done by not even trying. When I feel super fucked up, I think about you too much and about how much I used adore you and love you. I miss the past, but that cannot be recreated now. I couldn't take much more redicule, shunning, and ignoring. Those are my achilles heel. Kids did that to me all through school and now to have your closest reletives do these things? Its like being stabbed a million times but you still have to fucking live through it.
I wish you admitted that your son was a two faced, bold faced, sociopathic liar. Do you really think that many people are out to get him that he flies thru girl friend after girl friend. That he keeps getting arrested? Jesus! Sweet Jesus! Wake up!
I wish I could tell you these things. I wish you cared enough to believe me.
But for now I have to write to the sky and let it go or its going to kill me.
To Aunt D: I wish you knew how much damage you've done by not even trying. When I feel super fucked up, I think about you too much and about how much I used adore you and love you. I miss the past, but that cannot be recreated now. I couldn't take much more redicule, shunning, and ignoring. Those are my achilles heel. Kids did that to me all through school and now to have your closest reletives do these things? Its like being stabbed a million times but you still have to fucking live through it.
I wish you admitted that your son was a two faced, bold faced, sociopathic liar. Do you really think that many people are out to get him that he flies thru girl friend after girl friend. That he keeps getting arrested? Jesus! Sweet Jesus! Wake up!
I wish I could tell you these things. I wish you cared enough to believe me.
But for now I have to write to the sky and let it go or its going to kill me.