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[maufrais]

life's been different lately.
a different shade of gray.
sometimes it feels like a good thing,
but i'm not too convinced of that.
i'm medicated.
i don't understand some things.
although my thoughts have been
a bit more abstract lately.
i suppose that's an improvement.
yet my motivation and effort
have disappeared.
i don't sleep.
i'm weaker than i once was.