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hyper-sweet still doesn't realize how much he means to me. well... maybe he does. but he's been making and canceling plans and is a bitch to get a hold of 'cause he has no cell and his roomies don't give him messages. i'm thinking of trying to give him another ultimatum-type thingie. "i don't think it's wise for me to be a part of your life right now. you seem to have your plate pretty full with everyone else. call me when you've got more free time - if you actually want to, that is - and maybe i'll be willing to try this again. but in the meantime i'm not even being treated as your friend. you only notice me when it's a convieniance to you. and it's killing me. so leave me alone and don't bother me till you're ready to take it seriously." .....maybe he'll begin to understand how much i hurt for him. and maybe he'll stop speaking to me - at least it will be a real decision and not this wishy washy crap that's driving me insane.
fuck it.