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It's strange. After I broke up with Nick I went through a long period of hating love. I thought it was stupid and fake and a waste of time. Now I feel like I want nothing but love. Like if I could just be in love I would be happy. Love could take care of me. Love would be my job. Like if I could be in love then I would give up trying to find a career and I could be ok with that. But that isn't ok.

I just feel sad. I guess I'm looking for love in a person, in friends, in what I do. And finding love in what i do turns out to be a lot harder than I imagined. I don't have a clear path. And I'm not happy