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[mattbosh]

Hey Kids, yea just updating, so yea life in meriden ranges from absolutely shitty, to fucking awesome depending on who i am with, the fam is so pissing me off specially the rents they never stop talking about my "future" i'm kinda sick of it. it makes me think of terminator 3 except i don't have my own terminator to try and convice me that i want my future. But that shit aside, i still have my friends here which is kinda cool. and there are def a couple worth mentioning but ehh.. i miss sara and that has to be the biggest understatement of the year. i dunno i just don't feel right with out being in keene, my dad basicaly told me that i should drop out and for that i wanted to deck him, but he's my dad and i get that he is worried about me "future" where i am going but right now i am more concerned with where i am at. i mean i honestly just wanna get through next semester and get outta this hole i have dug myself. once i do that though i will be good to live again, hopefully. i dunno it's funny how much parents don't understand. i have been thrown into this world of college life with no preparation and no real warnings that come to mind, didn't they see that i was destined to fail. well whatever fuck them, i learned alot from my fucking up semester, alota about school, life, friends, and myself. i think i have finally come to grips with who i am. and i like who i am even if my family doesn't, i have changed alot but not in a bad way from what i can see, i'm thinking if my rents will just get off my back for this summer i will be alright. well at least i have one vacation to look forward to... well work is a callin talk to you later..
Sara damn i miss you

_mattbosh_