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I hate the way you make me feel
i want to tear you apart to make me feel better.
I want you to feel the pain both physically and mentally
that i have to endure every waking moment.
I cut your name into my heart and mind today
so i will always remember what you did to me.
Not a day will go by that i dont feel the pain
that you made me feel and almost taste.
But everything i do revolves around you,
my thoughts, my actions, my very life.
Like the moon pulls the tides of the ocean
you control everything inside of me.
I feel as though i lost a part of myself
in the turmoil that ensued the bitterness.
It's the part that will let me love again
that is left dying and broken on the floor.
I dont know if i will ever feel this "love" again
as it was a love that was so complete.
This is an existence that i have never known
and now something i must softly kiss goodnight.
I hate this.