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i took this one in my stride and never looked over my shoulder to see what was coming,
i pushed so hard to understand what it was that made you who you are now.
i shifted and changed into what i needed to be to gain everything,
...but still i am nothing.
i conquered hard and fast and i proudly stood atop what i had built,
i sacrificed emotion to gain understanding never thinking i needed to pay the price.
i looked down upon you and smiled a smile that would make skin crawl,
...yet i am no better than you.
i built the best defence against anything that even dares to oppose me,
i am strong and mighty and i can take down anything with what i have learned.
i have made myself so much stronger than you ever were,
...or so i thought.
i want to cry to release this hold that you have over me, but i have nothing,
this is the sacrifice i made for my gain and it kills me more and more each time.
my heart breaks and yet i feel i have nothing to give,
the emptiness inside being all that i have discarded over the years to make "me",
...i am killing myself to live.
my mind is showing weakness, my defences are failing,
i am slipping from atop of what i have built and i cant hold on anymore.
you are always there and you always make it so hard to move,
just a little room would be nice for once, some room to grow, some space to be who i am,
NEVER ONCE HAVE YOU EVER LET UP AND JUST LET ME BE.
i am no better than you, for i am what i have been trying to escape.