fast
so so fast. i am moving so fast in some areas it scares me. all the realisations about who i am and what i'm about are coming through so thick and fast. everyday is something new. i seem to be coming to terms with myself on quite a few levels and it's really really full on. one i've had lately was to sit back and realise that the reason i hate my job is because of my ego and ignorance. the fun part was then being able to accept that that is the problem and then making a conscious decision to change. to have enough guts to be able to call that within myself and enough humility to accept that was mind blowing.
there seems to be a split lately. there are people who are doing the self realisation thing and they are just going nuts with it. things are starting to fall into place and people are "getting it". there are lessons coming thick and fast and people are surrounding themselves with these everyday on a conscious or subconscious level because they are ready to receive what it is they need.
then there is the crowd that are completely shut down and totally self obsessed. they kinda get it but are too busy being self obsessed to see the lessons coming through that they quite often miss them while still preaching bullshit because they think they know it all. i can recognise this one because i've done this so much in the past myself. i figured you can always be happy in a world you've created if you shield yourself well enough. it's when you choose to come out of that and let people come in and change and re-arrange your whole perception of things is when you really start to live and learn.
more later...i've derailed myself from this train of thought somehow. stupid rails....