F**ck you (Final 2/2)
Title: F**ck you
Author: Matsuaurore
Banner: My lovely Medium-chan, Antimiya88 <3
Pairing: Sakuraiba, Ohmiya, Junma
Genre: Drama, romance, lots of angst xD
Summary: Aiba is gay and loves Sho for a long time but never told him because the caster as a “special view” of gays, the result of his parents’ strict education. But one day, Sho discovers the truth and Aiba’s world falls apart.
Disclaimer: For my dear Medium-chan’s birthday, Antimiya88 <3 I hope you will like it <3
Based on Lily Allen’s song, Fuck you
WARNING: PART 2 OF THE FINAL PART (please, read the previous post before this one)
Jun kept stroking his friend’s hair while Aiba was crying on his lap. The younger had found Masaki crying in the restrooms of the Jimushou and was hugging him for one hour, not understanding what happened to put him in this state as Aiba refused to tell him.
“Masaki, tell me… It’s because of Sho, isn’t it?”
“It doesn’t matter, you were right all this time. The pain in my heart is so big that I want to die.”
“Listen to me.” Jun put his hands on his cheeks to raise his face. “You’re Aiba Masaki, you’re strong, you went through hard things and even if you think you’re going to die in pain, you won’t. Because he doesn’t deserve your tears. Now, you’re going to wipe your tears and to smile like you always do because you won’t give him the satisfaction of knowing you cry for him.”
“I can’t…”
“You will, I don’t give you the choice. You have to get up, to stay proud and to ignore this bastard. Make him regret what he is losing.”
“He said gays are disgusting.” Aiba said weakly, making Jun freeze.
“I see. It’s even more a reason to get up and to stay strong. We are here for you, you’re not alone and even if it seems impossible, you will forget him.
And I’ll be here to slap you if you break down, okay?”
“Okay…”
Jun helped his friend to wash his face and when the others entered the green room, Aiba looked calm and as if nothing happened. Sho, on his side, looked like a wrecked with big dark shadows and puffy eyes. For the sake of Arashi, Jun kept a polite tone and didn’t say anything even if deep inside, he was boiling and dreamt to kill Sho. But the clever diva had an idea to give a lesson to the caster to give back some dignity to Aiba. Soon, it would be his birthday and the young man knew how to prepare a party that everybody would remember, especially Sho.
****
“Are you sure it’s a good idea?” Nino asked, purring when his lover started to lay kisses on his nape while Jun was finishing the last details of his party.
“No but we can try. Everything will depend of Masaki. Satoshi, could you please stop stroking Kaz’s member? I’m here in case you haven’t seen it
and you two already fucked some minutes ago.”
“Gomen gomen.” Ohno laughed, pulling his hand away and making Nino groan.
“Oi, I was enjoying it.”
“Wait to be alone to do your pervert things.” Jun muttered. “Okay, it’s ready, everybody will come to the party.”
“I just want this silent war to end, the atmosphere is horrible and Arashi is not the same anymore…”
“Unfortunately, we have to deal with it…” Jun sighed. “Now, get ready, I don’t want you to be late for my birthday.”
“We have time, it’s in three hours.”
“And since when three hours are enough for you to fuck?” Jun raised an eyebrow, making Ohno laugh.
“Not false, c'mon babe, let’s go.” Ohno stood up, taking Nino’s hand to leave the green room.
When Aiba entered Jun’s apartment, the party was already going on very well, people laughing and talking with beers in their hands. Despite his will
to stay home, Aiba had made the effort to come because it was Jun’s birthday and it was more important than his pain. Despite his friends’ help, the animal lover was suffering like never before and several times, had stared at the big knife in his kitchen with interested eyes. Dying was tempting but Aiba couldn’t stand the idea of making his family and his close friends suffer. He knew his heart would heal but it would need lots of efforts and patience.
“Masaki!!!” Jun exclaimed, hugging him tightly.
“Happy birthday, Jun…”
“Thank you, but you look like a zombie, I want you to have fun and to smile so, I have a surprise for you!”
“Eh?”
“Hello, Masaki…” A man smiled shyly.
“Kou-chan? But…”
“Jun asked me to come and I couldn’t refuse, I regret what happened last time between us…”
“It’s my fault, I was sad and told you horrible things…”
“I… If you want, I’m ready to try again with you…”
“I…” Aiba stopped when his look fell on Sho entering the apartment, as sexy as hell. “Okay.”
“Really?” Kousuke grinned.
“Yes, but you will have to be patient, I’m a bit broken for the moment.” Aiba joked sadly.
“Then, I’ll be the one who will heal your heart.” Kousuke grabbed his nape to kiss him deeply. “Now, let’s have fun!” The younger exclaimed, taking
Aiba’s hand to lead him toward the counter full of alcohol. Sho stared at them with dark eyes, clenching his jaw when Kousuke kissed Aiba again and kept sticking their bodies. Nobody seemed to care except him who couldn’t stand this view and taking a glass of vodka, Sho joined some friends to talk, trying to ignore the way Aiba was undulating his hips when his friend started to dance with his “boyfriend”.
“Now, let’s start the karaoke!” Jun exclaimed two hours later when everybody was a bit drunk and in the mood to sing without any shame. The
Ohmiya started their show, making everybody laugh because they were more kissing than singing, falling on the sofa in loud laughs. Despite the happy mood and all the alcohol in his blood, Sho couldn’t even smile, wondering what he was doing here. Of course, it was for Jun but it was as if he didn’t have his place here. The caster blinked when Aiba took the micro, laughing stupidly because of his drunk state.
“So, are you having fun, minna???”
“Yeah!!!”
“Now, it’s my turn to sing and this song is for someone special, a way to tell him what I think deep inside!” Aiba giggled under the laughs.
Look inside
Look inside your tiny mind
Now look a bit harder
'Cause we're so uninspired
So sick and tired of all the hatred you harbor
So you say
It's not okay to be gay
Well, I think you're just evil
You're just some racist who can't tie my laces
Your point of view is medieval
Aiba started to sing, walking toward Sho with defying eyes. The caster’s mouth opened widely and seeing the faces of the rest of Arashi, it seemed they hadn’t planned this part of the night. Jun was looking panicked and Ohno and Nino had stopped to kiss, both staring at Aiba with shocked eyes.
Fuck you
Fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So, please don't stay in touch
Fuck you
Fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So, please don't stay in touch
Aiba smirked in front of Sho’s panicked face, enjoying his little trick. It wasn’t planned at all but when Jun had started the karaoke and the animal lover had seen the title of the song, a plan had started in his head. Now, he was going to humiliate the caster as much as the other one did some months ago. It was about time to take his revenge and to make him pay for his cruel words. Maybe now, he would be able to move on and to forget the caster.
Do you get
Do you get a little kick out of being small-minded?
You want to be like your father
It's approval you're after
Well, that's not how you find it
Aiba grabbed his hand to pull him in the middle of the room, wrapping his arms around the caster’s neck to dance against him while singing, tears shining in his eyes despite his confident smile. Sho was as red as a tomato, everybody looking at them and encouraging Aiba with claps or whistles. Maybe nobody would understand the meaning of all that but Aiba knew that saying what he thought would help him to feel better.
With a smirk, the animal lover started to stroke Sho’s butt under the laughs, palpating the firm ass with a defying eyes before pushing Sho away to keep singing while moving his hips.
Do you
Do you really enjoy living a life that's so hateful?
'Cause there's a hole where your soul should be
You're losing control a bit
And it's really distasteful
Aiba came back toward Sho, making him sit on the sofa to climb on his lap under the whistles of everybody. The animal lover started to undulate on the caster, not missing the drops of sweat rolling down his friend’s temples, the meaning Sho was really starting to panic and for his biggest happiness, Aiba grinned when something hard started to pock his butt. Sho’s face paled, excitation was wining his lower half despite this humiliation in front of more than 20 persons.
You say
You think we need to go to war
Well, you're already in one
'Cause it's people like you that need to get slew
No one wants your opinion
Fuck you
Fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So, please don't stay in touch
Fuck you
Fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So, please don't stay in touch
At the last ‘fuck you’ of the song, Aiba stole a kiss to Sho before biting his lip hard and standing up quickly to leave the living room. It took some seconds to Sho to realize and to stand up and follow his friend who was ‘arguing’ with Jun.
“Masaki…”
“I’m sorry for spoiling your birthday but I needed to say what I had deep inside.”
“It’s okay, you did great and everybody thought it was a joke. Stay, please.”
“No, I need to go, I can’t stay in the same room than him for today. I need to be alone.”
“Aiba…” Sho started but only won a dark look.
“No need to talk, Sakurai. You can be angry but you deserved it so, shut up and leave me alone.”
“I know. What I did to you was awful but I want to apologize.”
“It’s too late to apologize and I will never forgive you for humiliating me like that in front of your girlfriend.”
“Please, can we talk? I really want to explain.”
“There’s nothing to say, what is done is done.” Aiba replied, taking his shoes and leaving the apartment.
“I told you you would lose him definitely if you kept acting like a jerk.”
“Please, Jun, not now, I’m not in the mood.” Sho sighed.
“But I am. Masaki never told us what you said but I can guess a bit. It’s so sad to be so proud that you prefer to lose him than admitting you love
him.”
“I’m not gay…”
“Fuck off with your ‘I’m not gay’!! I’m not talking about your sexuality but about the fact you love him!! Shit, Sho, do you really think love has a gender???!!! When you fall in love, it’s because of the person’s heart, because of what she is and not because she has a dick or a pussy between her legs!”
“Everybody would be bi, then.”
“No. Because of course, we have sexual preferences. But if you are het and fall in love with a man, it’s not necessarily because you are gay or bi, it only means you fell in love with the person herself and forgot about her gender. Ohno and Nino have never been attracted to men but they are together. Why? Because they need the other to be happy, they are deeply in love and their gender doesn’t matter in their eyes as long as they are happy. I don’t care if you are bi, het or gay, what I know is that you are crazy about Masaki but you are too proud to admit it. You need him, you can’t live without him and seeing him with Kousuke earlier gave you the will to make a murder!”
“I wasn’t jealous!”
“I knew you would. That’s why I invited him and he agreed. If you could, you would have killed him with one look. Why, Sho? Why do you prefer your pride than your happiness? Masaki is a wonderful guy, everybody would dream to have him and you, you own his heart but you keep rejecting him, why???”
“I don’t love him.”
“Sho, believe me, if you really didn’t love him, you would have never given him your ass.” Jun snapped, making the caster blink. “Even more if like you say, you aren’t gay. Do you know lots of men who would agree to be taken by a man just for sex? Mostly when the man is as proud than you are? Ten years ago, I gave you my virginity because I was madly in love with you. But I would have never done that with someone else. The only persons I have allowed to take me are you and Toma and believe me, before you, I had a pretty active sex life.”
“I’m just scared…” Sho whispered.
“It’s normal to be scared but it doesn’t justify what you did to him. He isn’t an object, Sho, he is a Human being, he has feelings and you have treated
him like some kind of piece of shit!”
“It was the only way to make him move on!!!” Sho yelled, a tear rolling down his cheek. “You think it’s easy but I did all that to protect him!”
“By destroying his heart and his pride?” Jun raised an eyebrow.
“Yes. Because if I hadn’t, Suzuka would have told my parents everything and believe me, Masaki would have lived a hell. I totally agree with your view of not caring about people’s opinion and I have never despised gays. But my parents aren’t like yours. They think gays are disgusting and should just stayed hidden and without any family. For them, I’m not natural and in a way, I don’t care, I have accepted it a long time ago but I will never impose this kind of life to Masaki. Because if we were together, we would have to hide it to my parents.”
“What do you mean?”
“I’m not as horrible as you think I am. When I was 17, I slept with a guy. I thought it was just to try but I finally started to like him and to like sex with him more than with a girl. But this piece of shit told everything to my parents and asked money to stay silent. It was the beginning of our careers and it was going to be spoiled by this bastard. Of course, my parents paid but after, they made me live a hell. I was abnormal, I was a shame and if I didn’t want to be disinherited, I had to be normal again. I agreed because I was a coward not ready to live by himself and to face the shame I was going to live. And then, I had you.” Sho smiled softly, stroking Jun’s cheek. “I remember everything of this night, how would I forget making love to the man I loved?”
“Wh-at?” Jun’s mouth fell open.
“I loved you, Jun. Making love with you was wonderful but when I woke up and saw your happy face, I understood I hadn’t the right to make you live the hell waiting for us if we went together. It was the hardest decision I took but I did it for you and I decided to lose you and make you believe how horrible I was. I saw you suffering during these two years and almost gave up but Toma came and healed your heart for me. Seeing you with him was horrible but for you, I was ready to accept it. And I don’t regret anything because today, you are happy and you have a wonderful boyfriend.”
“We could have faced all that together, baka!!!” Jun started to cry.
“No, Jun. You don’t know how this middle works. My father is powerful, he can make me die tomorrow if he wants. He can bring so much shame on me that nobody will ever accept me, even in a konbini. It’s harder than you think when you live in this middle.”
“But Sho, is it okay for you to lose Masaki?”
“I love him. I know it since a long time. Maybe two years or more. I hate knowing he has girls or men in his bed, I want him to be mine but I will
never be enough egoist to make him live what we almost lived together. I can’t impose him a life like that.”
“And if I’m ready to accept it.” A sob asked behind Jun.
“Masaki…” Jun took his hand.
“I was smoking outside to calm down, sorry, I listened to your conversation…” Aiba smiled through his tears. “You…” The animal lover walked toward Sho, slapped him hard and grabbed his collar to pull him in a wet kiss. “Why are you so stupid?”
“I’m sorry…”
“You made everybody see you like a heartless jerk!”
“For you…”
“Idiot! Do you think I am happier now than if you had told me the truth and we had faced all that together???”
“Masaki…” Sho smiled sadly, stroking his wet cheek. “You don’t realize how hard it is and I can’t impose you that. My parents will never accept us and we would have to love each other in secret. You’re not a dirty little secret, you’re more than that, you deserve the best my baka… Jun is right from the beginning, you are a wonderful person and you deserve to be treated like a prince. I’m not the prince you are waiting for and I’ll never be. Please, accept this reality.” Sho took Aiba’s hands to kiss it. “Like I did with Jun before, I’m protecting you now and I want you to be brave and to accept that even if it’s hard and if I cause you so much pain.”
“But Sho…”
“You think you’re ready to face that but you’re not. Ask Jun and Toma, ask Ohno and Nino how hard it is and their families know for them. Imagine if we had to hide from everybody, including my family… It would be too hard for you, you are so natural, with such a big heart, wanting to be loved by everybody around you. I’m not a man for you and I will accept it only if you accept it. I’m so sorry for making you suffer all this time, you have to know that I have cherished and love all the moments we spent together, even when it wasn’t sexual. Making love with you was the most precious gift you could give me. Thank you, Masaki.” Sho smiled and kissed him a last time before hugging Jun and leaving the apartment.
Aiba kept crying, hugging Jun tightly when his friend brought him in his arms.
“Now, you know he also loves you as much as you do.”
“But it doesn’t erase the pain…”
“I know but you have to respect his choice if you love him.”
“Would you?” Aiba looked at Jun who smirked.
“No way I would follow his wish, I’m too stubborn for that.”
“Thank you, Jun, you’re the best!!!” Aiba kissed his friend and left quickly.
“He is right.” Toma smirked from the entrance.
“Well, I’m not bad.” Jun joked, laughing when his lover kissed him with passion.
“Make them leave, I want you to be all mine tonight.” Toma whispered.
“Will you give me my gift?”
“Yup.”
“Okay, let’s throw them out of here.” Jun exclaimed under his lover’s laugh.
****
Sho groaned when the doorbell rang furiously. Leaving his bathroom, the caster put some clothes before opening the door. “Aiba?”
“And if I don’t agree with your decision?” A drenched Aiba snapped, all wet because of the rain.
“Come in, you’re going to catch a cold, baka.” Sho opened his door wider, letting the animal lover enter his apartment.
“Suzuka?”
“We’re not together since she found us in bed.”
“Well, you better be free, I won’t be with a taken man.” Aiba snapped.
“Eh? Masaki, I told you it’s not possible…”
“I heard what you said but I don’t agree. You might think I’m crazy and it’s not going to work but I want to try. You gave up on Jun and lived through
regrets. I don’t want that to happen to us. Maybe it won’t work, but we can’t know if we don’t try. I love you so much, Sho and I’m ready to face everything if we are together.”
“It’s not reasonable.”
“Love isn’t reasonable, Sho. You proved me you could let it go when you allowed me to take you, so now, forget your parents and take the risk to be with me.”
“You’re unfair, you know I can’t refuse you anything when you make this face.” Sho sighed.
“I know and I’ll take advantage of it. And of your junior.” Aiba grinned, stroking Sho’s member.
“Masaki…” The caster moaned and grabbed his nape to kiss him with passion, taking their clothes off quickly.
“Your mine and I’m yours, it’s something nobody will ever be able to take us.” Aiba whispered. “Now, make love to me like you never did before.”
“I won’t forget these words, you better hold your promise.” Sho laid him down his bed, kissing him slowly and deeply while stroking their members
together. Their lips met, played with each other before joining for insatiable kisses while Sho’s hand was traveling on Aiba’s body from his neck to his thigh, making the younger shiver in pleasure. “I love you so much…” The caster whispered, his mouth moving in Aiba’s neck to kiss and suck the soft skin, getting loud moans from the animal lover.
“Sho…” Aiba gasped when a finger entered him softly, his lover starting to prepare him slowly, his mouth getting down until it swallowed his hard member, making him moan. “Fuck… So good…” Aiba stroked Sho’s hair, moving his hips to take his mouth slowly. “Sho… Sho… I won’t last long… Sho…” The caster sucked harder, making his lover come in a loud pant and swallowing everything before moving up to kiss his boyfriend.
“You are so good, babe…”
“Take me… Please… I need you inside me…”
“Shhh, don’t be so impatient, we have the whole night… I also want to be yours after.” Sho whispered, biting Aiba’s lip softly and entering him after spreading some lube on his member. “You’re amazing… You always feel so go-od…”
Aiba’s nails sank in the caster’s back, his legs wrapping him to make him move deeper. It was slow despite their need to come, no one wanting it to last, kissing and whispering loving words insatiably, moaning loudly any time Sho hit his lover’s prostate and made him tighten around him. Linking their hands, Sho started to thrust harder, his body shaking in pleasure and wanting to find his release.
“God… Sho… I… Faster, I can’t stand it anymore… You’re driving me crazy…”
“Okay babe…” The thrusts started to accelerate, Sho’s hips slamming hard and fast, making Aiba scream and beg in pleasure, sweat rolling down his skin.
“Sho!!! Oh yes!!! Coming!!!!” Aiba started to moan incoherently words before coming hard between their stomachs while Sho was following him with a loud gasp.
“Are you okay?” Sho asked, panting.
“It was magic… I’ve loved it…”
“Me too…” Sho smiled, kissing his lover’s lips lovingly.
“I can’t believe it’s happening, I’m so lucky…” Aiba whispered, laying his head on Sho’s chest.
“Me too. Finally having you completely for myself. It’s a dream coming true.”
“We went through a lot.”
“I’m so sorry for that…”
“I have forgiven you, Sho. The most important is now. We will be fine as long as we are together.”
“Yes, together.” Sho smiled, kissing his boyfriend deeply before laughing. “Already hard?”
“Of course, no sex with you in several months is too much for me.” Aiba smirked. “And I’m impatient to take this sexy butt of yours.” The animal
lover grabbed Sho’s ass, making him gasp.
Yes, Dark Aiba was back and was going to torture his ass for a long moment.
Owari
A/N: So, this is finally the end of this little monster xD I'm glad I managed to end it even if it took me a long time, gomen >< I hope you have liked this OS, especially you, my dear Andy, because it was written for your birthday <3 I tried to write how I 'like' Sakuraiba (even if I'm not fond of this pairing xD) with sexy dominating Aiba because for me, the 'real' Aiba looks more like Kizoku tantei than Aibaka xD And it's fun to torture Sho and make him look like a coward even if in the end, he was only trying to protect Masaki (though, he was also scared of his parents of course). Poor Jun who discovered his feelings were shared (sorry Medium-chan :P) but Sho decided to reject him to protect him.
So, now, I can concentrate on my new Ohmiya and the epilogue of "If you say so" that I still haven't post ><"
See you soon, and if you liked this fic, don't hesitate to leave a comment, even a small one :D