F**ck you (part 2)
Title: F**ck you
Author: Matsuaurore
Banner: My lovely Medium-chan, Antimiya88 <3
Pairing: Sakuraiba, Ohmiya, Junma
Genre: Drama, romance, lots of angst xD
Summary: Aiba is gay and loves Sho for a long time but never told him because the caster as a “special view” of gays, the result of his parents’ strict education. But one day, Sho discovers the truth and Aiba’s world falls apart.
Disclaimer: For my dear Medium-chan’s birthday, Antimiya88 <3 I hope you will like it <3
Based on Lily Allen’s song, Fuck you
Part 2:
We clawed, we chained our hearts in vain
We jumped never asking why
We kissed, I fell under your spell.
A love no one could deny
“And if I was gay?” Aiba frowned. “Would you be disgusted?” The animal lover stared at Sho with dark eyes but also fear, not knowing how he would react if his friend rejected him.
“No! But it would be weird.”
“You should try men, Sho-kun, it would maybe loosen your ass.” Aiba snapped, making Jun burst out laughing.
“You’re a genius, Aiba, great pun.” Jun laughed, wiping the tears on his cheeks.
“And you could just be polite.” Sho replied, as red as a tomato, before leaving the room.
“What does he have today, his period?” Jun muttered. “He is even stiffer since he is with his new girlfriend.”
“Ignore him, he has to get used.” Aiba shrugged. “But I was serious, maybe I should try to take a man, just to see if I like it.”
“If you want to try, I know someone who is great in bed and will be happy to satisfy you.”
“Wait, he is a top or a bottom?”
“A bottom of course, I wouldn’t suggest you a seme, I know you like to dominate in bed. And don’t worry, he will never make a scandal if you sleep with him.”
“Thank you, Jun-kun.”
****
Don't you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you
I can't live a lie, running for my life
I will always want you
"Are you sure you want to try?" Jun asked again.
"Yes. If he really is a uke."
"He is, don't worry. Then, enjoy your night."
"Thank you MatsuJun. I owe you one." Aiba kissed his cheek and entered the love hotel to join one of the bedrooms where Jun's friend was waiting. He was determined to try sex with a man and see if he would be able to get it up for someone else than Sho.
"Hey... Do you want something to drink?" The young man smiled when he closed the door behind him.
"A beer, please. So, you know Jun-kun since a long time?"
"Ten years. We met at a party. It's with me he slept for the first time."
"Was it good?"
"Mmm... Clumsy... It's normal it was both our first time. But after the first try, it became very good and I was addicted to him after only several days." Kousuke chuckled.
"You didn't date him?"
"He refused. He was in love from head to toes with your bandmate, Sakurai. It seems he never told him though and when he finally got free from this love, he fell for Ikuta."
"That's sad for you."
"I'm over it since a long time." Kousuke laughed. "So, you are also in love with Sakurai? How can he do to have the most handsome men after him when he isn't even gay?"
"Dunno but he is lucky."
"I can just approve."
"Jun told you I'm a top?"
"He didn't need to. It's obvious. Even if you have never slept with a man before. Don't worry, I'm a proud bottom so; you can do what you want, I like it hard too."
"Perfect." Aiba put his beer on the floor and pushed the man on the bed to climb above him and kiss him. It felt a bit weird but not very different than with a girl. A mouth stayed a mouth after all.
****
After a shower, Aiba took his scattered clothes on the floor under the man's eyes.
"Then?"
"I don't know if it's interesting for you to know what I think."
"It is."
"I liked it a lot. I think I proved it, no?"
"You were pretty wild and demanding. I thought Jun would be the wildest man I would sleep with but you like it rough." Kousuke chuckled.
"Yes. I like to have the full control of my partner." Aiba smirked.
"Will you come back?"
"Want me to?"
"Well, if you aren't with Sakurai... I wouldn't say no for more sex with you. Five rounds were more than I expected. You gave me very good orgasms."
"Then, I'll call you." Aiba kissed him. "I would have loved to fuck you again but I have an appointment for my drama in 30 minutes. Bye." Aiba waved his hand and left the bedroom.
When Aiba joined the green room in the afternoon for the recording of the next AniShi, Jun almost jumped on him.
"Then?! How was it?!"
"Very good." Aiba smiled.
"How many rounds?"
"Five."
"Not bad!" Jun whistled. "Kousuke sent me a message. He was very happy and hopes you will call him again."
"I will. I still like women but it's very different with a man. More bestial. More intense. I could be rough without fearing to hurt him. With a girl, you have to be more careful. And doing him from behind is pretty
hot." Aiba chuckled.
"I totally agree! You should try a threesome, it's so good!"
"Pervert! You really had a wild sex life before Toma." Aiba smirked.
"I can say I have enjoyed my youth." Jun chuckled. "I have tried so many things. But with Toma, it's still very wild. If you want your relationship to work, you have to not get bored for the sex. I wonder how Sho can do. He has always seen sex like a duty, that's so sad."
"I think it's because he doesn't really enjoy it. If he did, he would be like us."
"I feel sad for him. He has so much pressure on his shoulders. He can't even do what he wants without thinking about the consequences."
"Because he wants it. Sho has proved his capacities since a long time, he should say 'fuck' to his parents and live his life."
"Ne, Masaki... Are you still hoping to have him?"
"I dunno. I love him so much. I know it will always stay a one side love but... I can't stop loving him... He is full of flaws but I love his qualities so much. I admire him a lot. Maybe I should confess."
"You're crazy! Have you forgotten his reaction for us??"
"I know but it would maybe help me to move on if I heard a proper rejection."
Outside the room, Sho closed the door discreetly and left the building to join the rooftop, still not believing what he had just heard. Aiba. Aiba Masaki was in love with him. A man he knew and worked with since forever was in love with him. A man he thought totally het.
"Okay, I have to calm down. If I act as if nothing happened, Aiba will never tell me the truth and everything will be fine!" Sho kept repeating. Why all his friends had decided to be gays?! Was it a fashion?!
I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me
I put you high up in the sky
And now, you're not coming down
It slowly turned, you let me burn
And now, we're ashes on the ground
After some minutes of silent complaints, Sho joined his friends in the green room, trying not to stare too much at Aiba. Anytime the younger got closer to him, Sho moved away as if he was going to be eaten. Knowing Aiba's feelings, Sakurai started to really see all the looks his friend was throwing him. The way his eyes stopped on his butt, the way he was looking at his hands and his lips. It was as if Aiba wanted to eat him or was going to rape him in the next second. It felt both exciting and disgusting. This situation lasted one week before things turned bad as they were changing their clothes after their training and Aiba's eyes laid too long on Sho's body.
"Could you, please, stop to stare at me? You look like a pervert stalker." Sho snapped under his friends gasps.
"I'm not looking at you." Aiba blushed, biting his lip.
"Listen, I know you like me but I'm not into..." Sho grimaced. "I'm not like you so, please, respect me and look elsewhere."
"Not like me? What do you mean?" Aiba frowned.
"Gay. It's your problem if you don't want to be normal, not mine."
"Sho!!!" The other three snapped but Aiba shook his head.
"You're very stupid to think all these ugly things. I thought I was your friend."
"You are but it's you who has a problem. At least, I'm a real man!"
"Really?" Aiba's eyes darkened.
"Masaki, no!" Jun stood up but the older was faster and pushed Sho against the wall roughly, grabbing strongly one of his wrist and his second hand grabbing painfully Sho’s cock, making him gasp in both pain and surprise.
"I'm a man. And if I wanted, I would be able to fuck you against this wall so hard that you would cry and run in your dear mama's arms. I'm not a girl, Sakurai. I fuck men. I fuck them hard and make them beg for a release. I send them to paradise and I do the same with women. You’ll never be as manly I am or our friends are because you lead the perfect life your daddy and mommy want. I feel very sad for you, knowing you see sex like a duty and not a pleasure for yourself and your partner. So, I maybe sleep with men but I’m not ashamed of what I am and I take my own decisions. Now, if you ever dare to insult me again, I can swear you I won’t be just yelling, Sakurai.” Aiba released him and left the room angrily.
I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me
I came in like a wrecking ball
Yeah, I just closed my eyes and swung
Left me crashing in a blazing fall
All you ever did was wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me
“You should apology, you went too far.” Ohno said coldly.
“He was staring at my body!”
“And then, was it a reason to insult him? To insult us?”
“I didn’t mean to be so harsh but I was angry.”
“Be honest for once in your life, Sho. You don’t see us like your friends anymore? Are you ashamed of us? Are you disgusted?”
“I…” Sho stared at his three friends for some seconds before shaking his head. “No. I still love you guys. I’m not ashamed of you. Okay, it’s still a bit hard for me to accept it but I wouldn’t stop being friend with you for that.”
“Then, why did you say that?”
“I…” Sho bit his lip. “I dunno. I have to go, excuse me.” The caster left the room quickly.
“It’s weird.” Nino muttered.
Jun chuckled and shook his head. “I was sure.”
“Eh?”
“Nothing.” Jun smiled and left the room.
“He is even weirder.” Nino sighed under Ohno’s chuckle.
“Don’t think about it, MatsuJun will handle that. Let’s go home, we have lots of things to do.” The leader bit Nino’s earlobe slightly, making his lover shiver.
“You’ll be the death of me, pervert jii-san.” Nino wrapped his arms around Ohno’s neck to kiss him. “And if we didn’t wait to be at home.”
“And I’m the pervert?” Ohno smirked, opening his lover’s jeans.
“Always.” Nino grinned, kneeling down to swallow his boyfriend’s length.
“Ka-zu…”
****
I never meant to start a war
I just wanted you to let me in
And instead of using force
I guess I should've let you win
I never meant to start a war
I just wanted you to let me in
I guess I should've let you win
Don't you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you
The next day, the atmosphere was electric between Aiba and Sho. The younger was still very angry and also hurt while Sho didn’t know how to act, feeling guilty for his words but also annoyed because of Aiba’s stares on his body the previous day.
“Aiba-chan…” The caster approached his friend in their green room.
“Why are you talking to me? You should be careful, I’ll maybe rape you poor little Keio boy.” Aiba replied coldly.
“Listen, I didn’t want to be so harsh… I apology for my words…”
“It doesn’t mean you don’t think them.”
“I don’t! But you have to understand it’s a bit hard for me. I discover that Jun is gay, Ohno and Nino are together and now, you are gay.”
“I’m bi. I fuck men and women.”
“Well, you sleep with men, and now I discover that you like me, so, try to understand my feelings, it’s a bit too much.”
“I’m sorry if you hated my stares on you. You’re handsome, I like to stare at handsome people, I promise I’ll be careful and will stay away from you for Arashi’s sake.”
“I don’t want things change between us. You’re my friend and love you so, don’t act weirdly with me. Don’t stare at my body but don’t become a stranger toward me… I can promise I’ll try to accept this situation.”
“Fine.” Aiba made a small smile, his heart aching painfully.
“And don’t grab my cock like that again, it was pretty scaring and painful.”
“It could become very pleasurable if you let me do.” Aiba smirked, approaching the caster with hungry eyes, making Sho move back against the wall.
“Are you joking again?” Sho stammered.
“Who knows? Don’t you want to feel my lips around your big cock? Sucking it hard and swallowing the result of your pleasure.” Aiba whispered in the older’s ear, his hand brushing his cock. Sho shivered violently and was about to answer when his friend moved back with a smirk. “Just kidding.” Aiba laughed.
“Kidding about what?” Nino asked as their friends were entering the room. Jun looked at Sho who was a red as a tomato and put his hand on his mouth to hide his laugh.
“Sho-kun is very red, what happened? Were you doing pervert things with Aiba?” Nino smirked.
Sho sighed and shook his head, his friends were sometimes so… annoying.
“Oh, I forgot to tell you!” Jun suddenly said. “I’ll have a new drama! And Aiba too!”
“Really?! Sugoi! We have to celebrate!” Nino exclaimed.
“Come tonight at my place, Toma also wants to celebrate!”
“This pervert, just an excuse to have sex.” Nino smirked.
“Believe me, we don’t need to celebrate something to have sex.” Jun grinned. “Be at my place for 8.30 p.m.”
“Okay!”
****
“Are you sure it’s a good idea to make them come?” Toma asked as Jun was cooking.
“They are both adults and have to act like ones. It’s okay, babe, Sho and Aiba will be fine. I just hope Aiba won’t tease him when he will be drunk. This situation is sad because it’s so obvious Sho-kun has feelings for Aiba. It’s almost written on his face.”
“You all want him to respect your gender’s preference but you also have to respect his own choices.”
“I do. I admire him a lot, Sho will always stay a model for me but as I am his friend, I want him to be happy and this kind of life doesn’t make him truly happy.”
“I know but it’s his choice. It doesn’t concern the rest of Arashi.”
“It’s complicated. A part of me respects his decisions but another part wants to shake him and make him understand his mistakes.” Jun sighed. “Can you tell me if the sauce is good?” The older held out the spoon to his lover who licked it with naughty eyes.
“Delicious, like always.”
“Babe, don’t start, they will be here soon.” Jun moaned.
“Tell me you don’t want it and I’ll stop.” Toma smirked, biting his lover’s lower lip. “You’re already so hard for me.”
“Shit, you’ll be the death of me!” Jun threw the spoon in the sink and attacked his boyfriend’s lips
hungrily.
Aiba and Nino smirked when 30 minutes later, Jun opened the door, his hair wild, his cheeks still pink and his shirt opened.
“Seems we are interrupting.” The gamer chuckled.
“I was cutting the onions!” Jun blushed.
“Half naked?” Sho raised an eyebrow but kept staring at Jun’s torso, not able to stop looking at his firm abs. The younger caught his look and smirked before letting them enter.
“The kitchen was hot with what I’m preparing.”
“Of course.” Nino smirked.
Jun ran in his bedroom to arrange his clothes while Toma was giving them some beers, looking freshly fucked.
“If you are about to say something about sex, Nino, just shut up.” Toma said when the gamer opened his mouth. Ohno burst out laughing and patted his lover’s head.
“He knows you too much, Kazu. Don’t sulk.”
“I’m innocent.” Nino whined.
“Let’s say we haven’t heard that.” Ohno chuckled.
They started to eat, drinking and laughing, everybody happy to spend some time all together. They didn’t share lots moments because of their personal jobs and their different friends but it was good to spend some hours together.
“But weren’t you with Toma when you kissed Aiba?” Nino chuckled after his nth beer.
“I was but I explained him what happened and he forgave me.”
“Well, it was just a kiss because of our tiredness and all these emotions.” Aiba added with a giggle.
“Though, MatsuJun’s kisses are very good!”
“Oi, I forgave him but you weren’t meant to enjoy it!” Toma protested.
“Oops!” Aiba giggled.
“Leave it, babe, he is too drunk to think properly.”
“Aiba has kissed all the Arashi anyway.” Nino added.
“True! You’re such a bitch, Masa!” Jun smirked.
“Oi! I’m not! I just enjoy kisses, handsome men’s kisses and sex. By the way, the kiss with Sho-chan was too quick to be enjoyed.”
“Well, it had to.” Sho blushed.
“Not funny! I wanted to enjoy Sho-chan’s bitchy lips!”
“Eh? My bitchy lips?” The caster blushed.
“You have a pretty mouth like Aiba’s, of course everybody wants to taste it.” Jun chuckled.
“It would be a dream to have your bitchy lips around my dick.” Aiba said with dreamy eyes.
“Aiba!” Jun tried to warn him but for everybody’s surprise, Sho only blushed and chuckled.
“Too bad, I don’t offer this kind of service.”
“Can’t I suck you off?”
“Aiba!” Sho became as red as a tomato.
“What? Don’t tell me none of your girlfriends have ever sucked you???” Aiba gasped.
“Well… It’s not that but…”
“No way!!! It’s true??? You’ve never ever received a blowjob???” Nino’s eyes widened.
“Such a sad life.” Aiba shook his head.
“Let’s stop this conversation and go to sleep, everybody has drunk too much.” Jun suddenly said. “Satoshi,
Kaz’, you will sleep in the first guest room, I don’t want cum on my beautiful sofa.”
“Oi! We know how to behave!” Nino protested.
“Do have I to make you remember who ruined my previous sofa?” Jun arched an eyebrow.
“It was a bad sofa!”
“It was made of latter! It cost me so much and you ruined it! Perverts unable to not have your boyfriend’s cock inside you for only one night!”
“Fine, fine, we’ll take the guest room, we’ll make lots of pervert things and will think about you when you will change the sheets tomorrow.” Nino smirked under his lover’s sigh.
“Sho, you can take the second guest room with Aiba.”
“Okay.” The caster yawned and stood up to join the room, followed by Aiba who was stopped by Jun grabbing his arm.
“If you’re not able to stop yourself, I would prefer you to take the sofa.”
“Eh?”
“Masaki, I know how you are when you’re drunk and I’m not letting you sleep in the same bed than Sho to give you the opportunity to jump on him.”
“Would you be jealous?” Aiba frowned.
“No, I just want to avoid a big mess. Sho wouldn’t forgive you and believe me, spending a wonderful night to be violently rejected the day after is hard. Mostly when your best friend looks at you with disgusted eyes. I was lucky enough to make him believe he had slept with a girl of our party but tonight, it’s just the five of us.”
“I understand. Don’t worry, I’m drunk but I won’t make a mistake and anyway, Sho would kill me even with all this alcohol in his blood.” Aiba sighed. “Goodnight, Jun-kun.”
“Goodnight.” Jun sighed sadly before joining his own room.
Aiba laughed stupidly, taking his clothes off and laying on the bed.
"Don't you dare to touch me." Sho smirked, joining him.
"You're too confident, Sakurai. You would beg me that I wouldn't even touch you." Aiba chuckled.
"Why can't I believe that?" Sho giggled.
"Because you're an idiot?"
"Oi!" Sho protested, smacking his head.
"Itai!" Aiba whined.
"Ne, Masaki?"
"Hum?" Aiba's heart fluttered; it's been so long since Sho called him like that.
"Why do you love me?"
"What's with this question??? You're too drunk, Sakurai!" Aiba laughed.
"I am. But I want to know."
"Well... You're handsome, obviously. Except when you win too much weight, you look like Packman or a smiley when you laugh."
"Oiiiii!" Sho laughed.
"I love the real Sho-chan. The one who is kind with his friends. The one who is so soft with me. You're clever but you also can be so stupid. You're generous... You can be so clumsy and after; everybody thinks I'm Aibaka."
"Because you are." Sho smirked.
"Oi!" Aiba protested before laughing. "Why can't you love me?" The younger asked with sadness.
"Masaki..."
I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me
I came in like a wrecking ball
Yeah, I just closed my eyes and swung
Left me crashing in a blazing fall
All you ever did was wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me
"Sorry. I'm drunk and ask stupid questions. Of course someone like you would never like someone like me." Aiba wiped his tears.
"Masaki... Don't cry, you perfectly know I hate it. And what do you mean by someone like me?"
"You're Sakurai Sho. You're too good for someone like me..."
"Baka. It's completely stupid to think that. I can't love you just because I'm not gay... Don't cry please..." Sho stroked his cheek clumsily.
"I... Sorry... I..." Aiba kissed him quickly.
"Masa... Stop that... I..." Sho gasped, licking his lips.
"Your lips are too kissable..." Aiba kissed him again, biting the older's lower lip. Sho moaned and opened his mouth without knowimg why, letting Aiba dominate the kiss. "Too good..." The younger climb on the caster to kiss him with passion, ondulating.
"Ai-ba... What are you doing?" Sho protested.
"You want it as much as I want. You're hard like hell."
"I'm not. I'm drunk." Sho blushed and tried to push his friend but Aiba grabbed his wrists, sticking them against the mattress.
"Drunk but hard. Let me show you how good being taken is." Aiba bit softly the older's neck, stroking their members harder. Sho moaned loudly, shivering, his body begging for more but his brain screaming him to stop though, the caster's body didn't seem ready to cooperate and preferred to enjoy Aiba's lips and hands. "Don't worry, you'll love it." Aiba whispered, stroking his thigh.
To be continued...
A/N: I’m sorry for the delay but RL got crazy as I was working at Japan expo and didn’t have the time to write. I had the chance to see the conference for the movie Full metal alchemist and saw Yamada Ryosuke (he is so cute, his French is… well, he did his best xD)
So, I know someone is going to kill me for this cliff but my dear Andy, it’s your punishment for wanting the next part know :P Aiba knows how to defend himself against Sho, he even grabbed his penis, poor Sho, I felt sad for him, it must be painful xD
Aiba is very brave or crazy for doing that, Sho will maybe kill him the next morning xD the next part will be the last one, I’ll try to post it asap and to start posting Chandelier and the OS of “If you say so” right after and before going to Miami for my vacations J See you soon, comments, even the short ones, are deeply deeply <3
Author: Matsuaurore
Banner: My lovely Medium-chan, Antimiya88 <3
Pairing: Sakuraiba, Ohmiya, Junma
Genre: Drama, romance, lots of angst xD
Summary: Aiba is gay and loves Sho for a long time but never told him because the caster as a “special view” of gays, the result of his parents’ strict education. But one day, Sho discovers the truth and Aiba’s world falls apart.
Disclaimer: For my dear Medium-chan’s birthday, Antimiya88 <3 I hope you will like it <3
Based on Lily Allen’s song, Fuck you
Part 2:
We clawed, we chained our hearts in vain
We jumped never asking why
We kissed, I fell under your spell.
A love no one could deny
“And if I was gay?” Aiba frowned. “Would you be disgusted?” The animal lover stared at Sho with dark eyes but also fear, not knowing how he would react if his friend rejected him.
“No! But it would be weird.”
“You should try men, Sho-kun, it would maybe loosen your ass.” Aiba snapped, making Jun burst out laughing.
“You’re a genius, Aiba, great pun.” Jun laughed, wiping the tears on his cheeks.
“And you could just be polite.” Sho replied, as red as a tomato, before leaving the room.
“What does he have today, his period?” Jun muttered. “He is even stiffer since he is with his new girlfriend.”
“Ignore him, he has to get used.” Aiba shrugged. “But I was serious, maybe I should try to take a man, just to see if I like it.”
“If you want to try, I know someone who is great in bed and will be happy to satisfy you.”
“Wait, he is a top or a bottom?”
“A bottom of course, I wouldn’t suggest you a seme, I know you like to dominate in bed. And don’t worry, he will never make a scandal if you sleep with him.”
“Thank you, Jun-kun.”
****
Don't you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you
I can't live a lie, running for my life
I will always want you
"Are you sure you want to try?" Jun asked again.
"Yes. If he really is a uke."
"He is, don't worry. Then, enjoy your night."
"Thank you MatsuJun. I owe you one." Aiba kissed his cheek and entered the love hotel to join one of the bedrooms where Jun's friend was waiting. He was determined to try sex with a man and see if he would be able to get it up for someone else than Sho.
"Hey... Do you want something to drink?" The young man smiled when he closed the door behind him.
"A beer, please. So, you know Jun-kun since a long time?"
"Ten years. We met at a party. It's with me he slept for the first time."
"Was it good?"
"Mmm... Clumsy... It's normal it was both our first time. But after the first try, it became very good and I was addicted to him after only several days." Kousuke chuckled.
"You didn't date him?"
"He refused. He was in love from head to toes with your bandmate, Sakurai. It seems he never told him though and when he finally got free from this love, he fell for Ikuta."
"That's sad for you."
"I'm over it since a long time." Kousuke laughed. "So, you are also in love with Sakurai? How can he do to have the most handsome men after him when he isn't even gay?"
"Dunno but he is lucky."
"I can just approve."
"Jun told you I'm a top?"
"He didn't need to. It's obvious. Even if you have never slept with a man before. Don't worry, I'm a proud bottom so; you can do what you want, I like it hard too."
"Perfect." Aiba put his beer on the floor and pushed the man on the bed to climb above him and kiss him. It felt a bit weird but not very different than with a girl. A mouth stayed a mouth after all.
****
After a shower, Aiba took his scattered clothes on the floor under the man's eyes.
"Then?"
"I don't know if it's interesting for you to know what I think."
"It is."
"I liked it a lot. I think I proved it, no?"
"You were pretty wild and demanding. I thought Jun would be the wildest man I would sleep with but you like it rough." Kousuke chuckled.
"Yes. I like to have the full control of my partner." Aiba smirked.
"Will you come back?"
"Want me to?"
"Well, if you aren't with Sakurai... I wouldn't say no for more sex with you. Five rounds were more than I expected. You gave me very good orgasms."
"Then, I'll call you." Aiba kissed him. "I would have loved to fuck you again but I have an appointment for my drama in 30 minutes. Bye." Aiba waved his hand and left the bedroom.
When Aiba joined the green room in the afternoon for the recording of the next AniShi, Jun almost jumped on him.
"Then?! How was it?!"
"Very good." Aiba smiled.
"How many rounds?"
"Five."
"Not bad!" Jun whistled. "Kousuke sent me a message. He was very happy and hopes you will call him again."
"I will. I still like women but it's very different with a man. More bestial. More intense. I could be rough without fearing to hurt him. With a girl, you have to be more careful. And doing him from behind is pretty
hot." Aiba chuckled.
"I totally agree! You should try a threesome, it's so good!"
"Pervert! You really had a wild sex life before Toma." Aiba smirked.
"I can say I have enjoyed my youth." Jun chuckled. "I have tried so many things. But with Toma, it's still very wild. If you want your relationship to work, you have to not get bored for the sex. I wonder how Sho can do. He has always seen sex like a duty, that's so sad."
"I think it's because he doesn't really enjoy it. If he did, he would be like us."
"I feel sad for him. He has so much pressure on his shoulders. He can't even do what he wants without thinking about the consequences."
"Because he wants it. Sho has proved his capacities since a long time, he should say 'fuck' to his parents and live his life."
"Ne, Masaki... Are you still hoping to have him?"
"I dunno. I love him so much. I know it will always stay a one side love but... I can't stop loving him... He is full of flaws but I love his qualities so much. I admire him a lot. Maybe I should confess."
"You're crazy! Have you forgotten his reaction for us??"
"I know but it would maybe help me to move on if I heard a proper rejection."
Outside the room, Sho closed the door discreetly and left the building to join the rooftop, still not believing what he had just heard. Aiba. Aiba Masaki was in love with him. A man he knew and worked with since forever was in love with him. A man he thought totally het.
"Okay, I have to calm down. If I act as if nothing happened, Aiba will never tell me the truth and everything will be fine!" Sho kept repeating. Why all his friends had decided to be gays?! Was it a fashion?!
I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me
I put you high up in the sky
And now, you're not coming down
It slowly turned, you let me burn
And now, we're ashes on the ground
After some minutes of silent complaints, Sho joined his friends in the green room, trying not to stare too much at Aiba. Anytime the younger got closer to him, Sho moved away as if he was going to be eaten. Knowing Aiba's feelings, Sakurai started to really see all the looks his friend was throwing him. The way his eyes stopped on his butt, the way he was looking at his hands and his lips. It was as if Aiba wanted to eat him or was going to rape him in the next second. It felt both exciting and disgusting. This situation lasted one week before things turned bad as they were changing their clothes after their training and Aiba's eyes laid too long on Sho's body.
"Could you, please, stop to stare at me? You look like a pervert stalker." Sho snapped under his friends gasps.
"I'm not looking at you." Aiba blushed, biting his lip.
"Listen, I know you like me but I'm not into..." Sho grimaced. "I'm not like you so, please, respect me and look elsewhere."
"Not like me? What do you mean?" Aiba frowned.
"Gay. It's your problem if you don't want to be normal, not mine."
"Sho!!!" The other three snapped but Aiba shook his head.
"You're very stupid to think all these ugly things. I thought I was your friend."
"You are but it's you who has a problem. At least, I'm a real man!"
"Really?" Aiba's eyes darkened.
"Masaki, no!" Jun stood up but the older was faster and pushed Sho against the wall roughly, grabbing strongly one of his wrist and his second hand grabbing painfully Sho’s cock, making him gasp in both pain and surprise.
"I'm a man. And if I wanted, I would be able to fuck you against this wall so hard that you would cry and run in your dear mama's arms. I'm not a girl, Sakurai. I fuck men. I fuck them hard and make them beg for a release. I send them to paradise and I do the same with women. You’ll never be as manly I am or our friends are because you lead the perfect life your daddy and mommy want. I feel very sad for you, knowing you see sex like a duty and not a pleasure for yourself and your partner. So, I maybe sleep with men but I’m not ashamed of what I am and I take my own decisions. Now, if you ever dare to insult me again, I can swear you I won’t be just yelling, Sakurai.” Aiba released him and left the room angrily.
I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me
I came in like a wrecking ball
Yeah, I just closed my eyes and swung
Left me crashing in a blazing fall
All you ever did was wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me
“You should apology, you went too far.” Ohno said coldly.
“He was staring at my body!”
“And then, was it a reason to insult him? To insult us?”
“I didn’t mean to be so harsh but I was angry.”
“Be honest for once in your life, Sho. You don’t see us like your friends anymore? Are you ashamed of us? Are you disgusted?”
“I…” Sho stared at his three friends for some seconds before shaking his head. “No. I still love you guys. I’m not ashamed of you. Okay, it’s still a bit hard for me to accept it but I wouldn’t stop being friend with you for that.”
“Then, why did you say that?”
“I…” Sho bit his lip. “I dunno. I have to go, excuse me.” The caster left the room quickly.
“It’s weird.” Nino muttered.
Jun chuckled and shook his head. “I was sure.”
“Eh?”
“Nothing.” Jun smiled and left the room.
“He is even weirder.” Nino sighed under Ohno’s chuckle.
“Don’t think about it, MatsuJun will handle that. Let’s go home, we have lots of things to do.” The leader bit Nino’s earlobe slightly, making his lover shiver.
“You’ll be the death of me, pervert jii-san.” Nino wrapped his arms around Ohno’s neck to kiss him. “And if we didn’t wait to be at home.”
“And I’m the pervert?” Ohno smirked, opening his lover’s jeans.
“Always.” Nino grinned, kneeling down to swallow his boyfriend’s length.
“Ka-zu…”
****
I never meant to start a war
I just wanted you to let me in
And instead of using force
I guess I should've let you win
I never meant to start a war
I just wanted you to let me in
I guess I should've let you win
Don't you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you
The next day, the atmosphere was electric between Aiba and Sho. The younger was still very angry and also hurt while Sho didn’t know how to act, feeling guilty for his words but also annoyed because of Aiba’s stares on his body the previous day.
“Aiba-chan…” The caster approached his friend in their green room.
“Why are you talking to me? You should be careful, I’ll maybe rape you poor little Keio boy.” Aiba replied coldly.
“Listen, I didn’t want to be so harsh… I apology for my words…”
“It doesn’t mean you don’t think them.”
“I don’t! But you have to understand it’s a bit hard for me. I discover that Jun is gay, Ohno and Nino are together and now, you are gay.”
“I’m bi. I fuck men and women.”
“Well, you sleep with men, and now I discover that you like me, so, try to understand my feelings, it’s a bit too much.”
“I’m sorry if you hated my stares on you. You’re handsome, I like to stare at handsome people, I promise I’ll be careful and will stay away from you for Arashi’s sake.”
“I don’t want things change between us. You’re my friend and love you so, don’t act weirdly with me. Don’t stare at my body but don’t become a stranger toward me… I can promise I’ll try to accept this situation.”
“Fine.” Aiba made a small smile, his heart aching painfully.
“And don’t grab my cock like that again, it was pretty scaring and painful.”
“It could become very pleasurable if you let me do.” Aiba smirked, approaching the caster with hungry eyes, making Sho move back against the wall.
“Are you joking again?” Sho stammered.
“Who knows? Don’t you want to feel my lips around your big cock? Sucking it hard and swallowing the result of your pleasure.” Aiba whispered in the older’s ear, his hand brushing his cock. Sho shivered violently and was about to answer when his friend moved back with a smirk. “Just kidding.” Aiba laughed.
“Kidding about what?” Nino asked as their friends were entering the room. Jun looked at Sho who was a red as a tomato and put his hand on his mouth to hide his laugh.
“Sho-kun is very red, what happened? Were you doing pervert things with Aiba?” Nino smirked.
Sho sighed and shook his head, his friends were sometimes so… annoying.
“Oh, I forgot to tell you!” Jun suddenly said. “I’ll have a new drama! And Aiba too!”
“Really?! Sugoi! We have to celebrate!” Nino exclaimed.
“Come tonight at my place, Toma also wants to celebrate!”
“This pervert, just an excuse to have sex.” Nino smirked.
“Believe me, we don’t need to celebrate something to have sex.” Jun grinned. “Be at my place for 8.30 p.m.”
“Okay!”
****
“Are you sure it’s a good idea to make them come?” Toma asked as Jun was cooking.
“They are both adults and have to act like ones. It’s okay, babe, Sho and Aiba will be fine. I just hope Aiba won’t tease him when he will be drunk. This situation is sad because it’s so obvious Sho-kun has feelings for Aiba. It’s almost written on his face.”
“You all want him to respect your gender’s preference but you also have to respect his own choices.”
“I do. I admire him a lot, Sho will always stay a model for me but as I am his friend, I want him to be happy and this kind of life doesn’t make him truly happy.”
“I know but it’s his choice. It doesn’t concern the rest of Arashi.”
“It’s complicated. A part of me respects his decisions but another part wants to shake him and make him understand his mistakes.” Jun sighed. “Can you tell me if the sauce is good?” The older held out the spoon to his lover who licked it with naughty eyes.
“Delicious, like always.”
“Babe, don’t start, they will be here soon.” Jun moaned.
“Tell me you don’t want it and I’ll stop.” Toma smirked, biting his lover’s lower lip. “You’re already so hard for me.”
“Shit, you’ll be the death of me!” Jun threw the spoon in the sink and attacked his boyfriend’s lips
hungrily.
Aiba and Nino smirked when 30 minutes later, Jun opened the door, his hair wild, his cheeks still pink and his shirt opened.
“Seems we are interrupting.” The gamer chuckled.
“I was cutting the onions!” Jun blushed.
“Half naked?” Sho raised an eyebrow but kept staring at Jun’s torso, not able to stop looking at his firm abs. The younger caught his look and smirked before letting them enter.
“The kitchen was hot with what I’m preparing.”
“Of course.” Nino smirked.
Jun ran in his bedroom to arrange his clothes while Toma was giving them some beers, looking freshly fucked.
“If you are about to say something about sex, Nino, just shut up.” Toma said when the gamer opened his mouth. Ohno burst out laughing and patted his lover’s head.
“He knows you too much, Kazu. Don’t sulk.”
“I’m innocent.” Nino whined.
“Let’s say we haven’t heard that.” Ohno chuckled.
They started to eat, drinking and laughing, everybody happy to spend some time all together. They didn’t share lots moments because of their personal jobs and their different friends but it was good to spend some hours together.
“But weren’t you with Toma when you kissed Aiba?” Nino chuckled after his nth beer.
“I was but I explained him what happened and he forgave me.”
“Well, it was just a kiss because of our tiredness and all these emotions.” Aiba added with a giggle.
“Though, MatsuJun’s kisses are very good!”
“Oi, I forgave him but you weren’t meant to enjoy it!” Toma protested.
“Oops!” Aiba giggled.
“Leave it, babe, he is too drunk to think properly.”
“Aiba has kissed all the Arashi anyway.” Nino added.
“True! You’re such a bitch, Masa!” Jun smirked.
“Oi! I’m not! I just enjoy kisses, handsome men’s kisses and sex. By the way, the kiss with Sho-chan was too quick to be enjoyed.”
“Well, it had to.” Sho blushed.
“Not funny! I wanted to enjoy Sho-chan’s bitchy lips!”
“Eh? My bitchy lips?” The caster blushed.
“You have a pretty mouth like Aiba’s, of course everybody wants to taste it.” Jun chuckled.
“It would be a dream to have your bitchy lips around my dick.” Aiba said with dreamy eyes.
“Aiba!” Jun tried to warn him but for everybody’s surprise, Sho only blushed and chuckled.
“Too bad, I don’t offer this kind of service.”
“Can’t I suck you off?”
“Aiba!” Sho became as red as a tomato.
“What? Don’t tell me none of your girlfriends have ever sucked you???” Aiba gasped.
“Well… It’s not that but…”
“No way!!! It’s true??? You’ve never ever received a blowjob???” Nino’s eyes widened.
“Such a sad life.” Aiba shook his head.
“Let’s stop this conversation and go to sleep, everybody has drunk too much.” Jun suddenly said. “Satoshi,
Kaz’, you will sleep in the first guest room, I don’t want cum on my beautiful sofa.”
“Oi! We know how to behave!” Nino protested.
“Do have I to make you remember who ruined my previous sofa?” Jun arched an eyebrow.
“It was a bad sofa!”
“It was made of latter! It cost me so much and you ruined it! Perverts unable to not have your boyfriend’s cock inside you for only one night!”
“Fine, fine, we’ll take the guest room, we’ll make lots of pervert things and will think about you when you will change the sheets tomorrow.” Nino smirked under his lover’s sigh.
“Sho, you can take the second guest room with Aiba.”
“Okay.” The caster yawned and stood up to join the room, followed by Aiba who was stopped by Jun grabbing his arm.
“If you’re not able to stop yourself, I would prefer you to take the sofa.”
“Eh?”
“Masaki, I know how you are when you’re drunk and I’m not letting you sleep in the same bed than Sho to give you the opportunity to jump on him.”
“Would you be jealous?” Aiba frowned.
“No, I just want to avoid a big mess. Sho wouldn’t forgive you and believe me, spending a wonderful night to be violently rejected the day after is hard. Mostly when your best friend looks at you with disgusted eyes. I was lucky enough to make him believe he had slept with a girl of our party but tonight, it’s just the five of us.”
“I understand. Don’t worry, I’m drunk but I won’t make a mistake and anyway, Sho would kill me even with all this alcohol in his blood.” Aiba sighed. “Goodnight, Jun-kun.”
“Goodnight.” Jun sighed sadly before joining his own room.
Aiba laughed stupidly, taking his clothes off and laying on the bed.
"Don't you dare to touch me." Sho smirked, joining him.
"You're too confident, Sakurai. You would beg me that I wouldn't even touch you." Aiba chuckled.
"Why can't I believe that?" Sho giggled.
"Because you're an idiot?"
"Oi!" Sho protested, smacking his head.
"Itai!" Aiba whined.
"Ne, Masaki?"
"Hum?" Aiba's heart fluttered; it's been so long since Sho called him like that.
"Why do you love me?"
"What's with this question??? You're too drunk, Sakurai!" Aiba laughed.
"I am. But I want to know."
"Well... You're handsome, obviously. Except when you win too much weight, you look like Packman or a smiley when you laugh."
"Oiiiii!" Sho laughed.
"I love the real Sho-chan. The one who is kind with his friends. The one who is so soft with me. You're clever but you also can be so stupid. You're generous... You can be so clumsy and after; everybody thinks I'm Aibaka."
"Because you are." Sho smirked.
"Oi!" Aiba protested before laughing. "Why can't you love me?" The younger asked with sadness.
"Masaki..."
I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me
I came in like a wrecking ball
Yeah, I just closed my eyes and swung
Left me crashing in a blazing fall
All you ever did was wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me
"Sorry. I'm drunk and ask stupid questions. Of course someone like you would never like someone like me." Aiba wiped his tears.
"Masaki... Don't cry, you perfectly know I hate it. And what do you mean by someone like me?"
"You're Sakurai Sho. You're too good for someone like me..."
"Baka. It's completely stupid to think that. I can't love you just because I'm not gay... Don't cry please..." Sho stroked his cheek clumsily.
"I... Sorry... I..." Aiba kissed him quickly.
"Masa... Stop that... I..." Sho gasped, licking his lips.
"Your lips are too kissable..." Aiba kissed him again, biting the older's lower lip. Sho moaned and opened his mouth without knowimg why, letting Aiba dominate the kiss. "Too good..." The younger climb on the caster to kiss him with passion, ondulating.
"Ai-ba... What are you doing?" Sho protested.
"You want it as much as I want. You're hard like hell."
"I'm not. I'm drunk." Sho blushed and tried to push his friend but Aiba grabbed his wrists, sticking them against the mattress.
"Drunk but hard. Let me show you how good being taken is." Aiba bit softly the older's neck, stroking their members harder. Sho moaned loudly, shivering, his body begging for more but his brain screaming him to stop though, the caster's body didn't seem ready to cooperate and preferred to enjoy Aiba's lips and hands. "Don't worry, you'll love it." Aiba whispered, stroking his thigh.
To be continued...
A/N: I’m sorry for the delay but RL got crazy as I was working at Japan expo and didn’t have the time to write. I had the chance to see the conference for the movie Full metal alchemist and saw Yamada Ryosuke (he is so cute, his French is… well, he did his best xD)
So, I know someone is going to kill me for this cliff but my dear Andy, it’s your punishment for wanting the next part know :P Aiba knows how to defend himself against Sho, he even grabbed his penis, poor Sho, I felt sad for him, it must be painful xD
Aiba is very brave or crazy for doing that, Sho will maybe kill him the next morning xD the next part will be the last one, I’ll try to post it asap and to start posting Chandelier and the OS of “If you say so” right after and before going to Miami for my vacations J See you soon, comments, even the short ones, are deeply deeply <3